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to see tommorrow with a broken smile of yesterday

2007-02-23T15:27:00.000+08:00

fcuk, can?

quite sometimes now that i've been finding a new url for my blog and everything that i've think of seems to be taken.

fcuk blogger, can? being ever so slow when loading things up. and for being so difficult when we're choosing the url.

why change url? cause i want to start a new. now that i'm gonna step to a so-called new life. i want to put away the things that have happen in life for the past two year plus (of bloggin). it is certainly not a good part of my life and i want to change to start anew.

will either moved the blog to a new url or either closed it and do a new blog.

enough bout that.

life is always about working now. this sucks to the core? why? i hate to get so drain up after work. wonder how's life gonna be when i'm really really in the reeaal work of working.

have i say a million times, i'm so not ready to really go to the real working life. tsk tsk. i wish i'm only kid that looks forward for their next schling days.

growing up and being a grown up sucks. heard that before and gotta agree to it.

well, life is afterall a survival of the fittest.

ok, off to work now. cheerios.

to get a smile between all the tears shed

2007-02-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

whats wrong with falling down
you can always stand up again

if you look up at the sky after falling down,
the blue sky is also, today, stretching limitlessly and smiles at me...
i'm alive.

quoted from jap's one litre of tears

the story is so damn sad. japanese series. there's an indo one of a kind too. sad sad sad. i've never, ever in my life, cry a bucket like this. touched me alot and i cry ouh-kay. tsk tsk.

go watch it. there's a full series at youtube. just type one litre of tears. eleven episode in total. am at the nine one. bet i'll be able to finish it during the cny hols.

go watch it. not just because its a good (plus sad) story, but because there's alot alot alot of things that you can learnt from this story.

am attached to it. and can wait to know what happen in the end (tho' i've watch the indo version). anyway, the indo version is buku harian nayla. watch just a lil bit of it at sctv (indo channel that you can get to watch in spore thru the antenna or so).

just when we think that we are going thru the worst life,
just think of others who is suffering an even worser life.

not everything is going to be good all the time,
we've just have to come to a realization that,
comes one day,
we will get to enjoy the pure happiness of life.

sometimes there is things that you will miss even if its the one you hated most

2007-02-17T20:20:00.000+08:00

tired.

thats the word to sum up my 2nd day of straight work. four more days to go. have a rest and get started, for finding a job.

a new template. i just dunno why i'm sticking to the colour green. my favourite colour and i'm just too lazy to find a nicer template. so there it is, just a change of colour and background. afterall it doesnt matter if you dont like it. i love it. green green.

so tonight will be the night i'll wait for this week. football. man u, like what else. i just dont freaking understand why chelsea always get an easy (so-called) opponent as compared to man u, who always have opponents in the primiership itself. called it random but it never is.

thats it. cheerios and happy cny to those who celebrate. thanks tho' cause you caused me to work but at the same time i get the benefit of the incentive that you'll never get.

chiow.

i dont want to fall, not now when its only the beginning.

2007-02-13T16:53:00.000+08:00

sch's over, i'm free finally. truth is, i know i'm gonna miss sch. sounds stupid but this is the reality. sometimes, the things that we hate is the one we're gonna miss most. crazy, but this is the truth afterall.

an alhamdullilah, finally2 i've qhatam already. for the love of quran, i sacrifice my feelings. its a torture, really, to be taught by someone who is never sincere to you. i feel like tearing when i'm really the last few ayat of quran, really. god knows, how i feel relunctant sometimes to go ngaji for a reason that i have to face a person that i hate. after what happen to the elder sis earlier last year.

well, i hope Allah would open my heart to forgive and forget. cause i cant. when u hurt these people close to me, it really hurts me too. god knows that i'm sensitive when it comes to the family. cause i know, no one really loves me like they do. even at times when we are cold up there (in the head) but arent them the one who's gonna stay right beside you when things dont go on good?

so its over. sch's over and i've already qhatam. i couldnt be more happier. just left wit dila to ngaji and thats it, i dont want to have anything more wit them people. but of course, there are things i'm gonna miss. the good time of gossiping, updating, cam-whoring with dila after ngaji. will miss that. especially when we just pick up a new things-we'll-do-together, star gazing, right dila?

work's coming up next. i've plan to start everything after my one week of straight work (at the part time workplace) during cny. then maybe will start searching the work. i've made my decision not to try applying for a place at nie. god knows, its a tough decision. maybe not now, not with the fac that i have to complete the three year bond. i know, with the diploma i cant really go anyway far but i'll leave that to god's hand. and i hope i can still go on take part time degree in biomed sci or jump to another field and take diploma again.

i remembered, the other day when we had a meet-up wit them the fyp sup and team-mates, my fyp sup told us that we should not stop dreaming. i've gotta agree. stop dreaming means stop living. and thats what i'm going to do now. dream cause will never now if the dream could come true, right? i'm suddenly realising that its hard to stop studying. like there's a withdrawal symptoms, can?

lil sis is worrying me. i dont feel good with what happen recently. seriously. god knows the feeling i'm in right now. i dont want my lil sis to go wild. god, she is so damn close with me ok. even at the age of going to be eleven, i still kiss her on her cheeks and forehead cause she is still my baby sister. i dont want her to change cause i dont want us to miss being each other's company. tsk tsk.

i dont want to give up. this is only the beginning but i so want to give up already. god help me, let me be strong. i dont want to fall when i'm just a few steps up.

tsk tsk.

just another chance

2007-02-12T09:39:00.000+08:00

i so want an A today for my last lesson in RP.

the A is so important that it can change my module grade from B+ to A. well, put aside the ut 4 results, of course.

god help me!

its the harsh reality that will never go away

2007-02-09T11:56:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i takes the end to actually realize one's attitude. how ironic. i'm getting sick of entertaining this kind of people. one with attitude problem. give me a break can? this is so irritatingly irritating.

come to me when you need me and then what? how appreciative of you? pathetic is more like it. know what, i can always live without this kind of people. make my live much better. maybe i'm too good a person a times, that people take advantage of.

maybe its true when some says that i'm too naive. naive.

and don't you even dare show that you care. you are just a plain jerk-ass.

omg, i hate it when all this shitty emotions come all over again.

damn.

damn the dilemma

2007-02-08T11:51:00.001+08:00

i hate it everytime i'm in a dilemma.

the grad ceremony is on the 13th of march.

like, omg. collecting ur transcripts and certs on stage. like i so dun wan it. and having to spend 22 bucks on the grad gown is so, i dunno.

like why the hell do we have to pay for the gown. paying means buying. and i'm sure that i'm just gonna use it once. and oh god, why cant they just allow us loan the grad gown. for god's sake, do i really have to buy it? i dun feel like going, can?

omg, i'm really torn la skrg.

i just dont want to disappoint them, the lovely parent. the best i could ever have. them would really want to see me have the grad grown on and go on stage and be proud to finally be a diploma graduate. it is a really big thing for us.

years of being seen as a trash to them people i just dont want to mention, now we can be proud of where we are. diploma might not be so good to be proud of, but its abt dignity. its always nice to see them eat back the words, see their expression after so much of thinking highly of themselves. sometimes, revenge is not the best solution to the bad doings. to prove them wrong is the best one.

i want to cry already!

so i kinda have to give in to them parent. i love them and i know they love me alot too. they love us siblings a lot a lot tau! and i just wan to share my gd moments wit them lovely. well, thats the best i can do, the lil bit that i can do to pay for their love and sacrifices.

when touching bout this, i always end up tearing. tsk tsk.

i love them <3

ps: other updates in the next entry ;p

like what the fuck...

2007-02-01T12:06:00.000+08:00

so blogger have now forced me to migrate to the so call beta-blogger-that-is-no-more-beta.

like wtf?

i can make my own decision and i somehow feels that the new blogger sucks!

i'm pissed off. enough of that.

i'm sick again! second time for this year when its only first of feb. fuck la. i hate it when i get sick. block nose and cough. just what the hell is wrong with me.

and i came to work yest, despite being sick and all. so penat can.

and because of that, i miss man u match early this morning cause i'm darn tired.

luckily they won 4 to nil agst watford. thank god. i love you, rooney! four goals in the last three matches. more to come for the weekend match, can?

i tot everything is gonna be fine now that i'm gonna graduate, but no...there's this shit call the SLA (student life activity) that i need to do, finish up by latest 2mr (friday).

like omg!

why wanna make me feel so stress when its already towards the end.

and oh god, i have to write a testimonial on myself for it? how lame can the sch be. i'm like so dead already!

on the happier note, i bought a new adaptor for the laptop. like yay, its the end of no-opening of laptop-cause-there's-no battery!

on on the very no happy note, my savings is like g-o-n-e!, in a split of a second! damn. no more using of my savings. no more, get it sarina?

and oh, i'm working for seven days straight on the cny week. one of the days with full shift. damn. i wonder if i can tahan.

ok, out people!

2007-01-29T13:00:00.000+08:00

i feel like skipping sch, can?

freaky!

the laptop adapter kong oready. rosak. spoilt. and that bloody friday night, it decide to not play the 'on and off' game but instead off terus. rabak sey. worst comes to worst, there's spark seen on the adapter.

ok, that is soo giler.

and i fall again.

slip and fall. one more time. at work. bloody hell. that bloody auntie dont even bother to put the 'caution, wet floor' sign after mopping the floor. freaky, can? and my body is still aching from that fall. neckla, elbowla, like everywhere is aching and soon gonna break...

cam **** betol!

on a happier notes, bought new apparels. dua jer. and one was close to be oversize can? and how much have a spend this week, like almost the whole of my two weeks pay. must must must cut down my spendings. ergh.

fasting 2day. hari assyurah thingy. and plus paying for the debts. really, i got alot alot alot to pay. like, omg!

so msia lose to spore. like wat the fuck. not the least that i bothered. had work dat day and so, spore win was truthfully by luck. agree wit me? penalty is always about luck never about true skills. u'll never know if the player will kick the ball low, high, right or left (unless u do analysis bout their pattern of penalty kick. like what that germany coach did). so, u dun have to be oh-so-proud that you won. get it. i'm proud of my boys (boys, per?). afterall i bet they did a good job having to play away for the 2nd game and manage to score and manage to stay unbeaten even after the 120th minutes and only to lose by one miserable saved penalty kick. couldnt we be any happier?

and the newspapers can be so fucked up, can? super irritating!

i'm not really bother abt the match between msia n spore. i was more looking forward for man u vs portmouth match. teehee. that is much fun, ok? so say hello to wayne rooney! he's found his goal form and the second goal was suberp. three goals in 2 matches oreadi. i cannot be any happier for u <33

ok, work to do now. cheerios.

2007-01-26T13:10:00.000+08:00

today's class can be super boring.

i hate today's lab, can? like omg, spare me.

and there's ut today.

and i haven even start doing my work wen its already 1323hr.

i so wan to go home. get a rest. watch football. forget sch. can?

omg, i really need to fast forward the time, can? no?

no?

haix.

ps: maybelline make-up studio is super cool can? teehee.

2007-01-25T12:35:00.000+08:00

what a boring day?

gd way of starting a post :p. anyway, sch is such a bore. like what's new? but this is super duper boring, reaching to the max. like i've gt no reason, except to get a better grade, to come to sch. everything is so the boring now, people and classes. get it? like its barely 3 wks to go...

and oh, yest was spend with great fun. there's pictures but yet to be editted. un-editted pics are not suppose to be posted, remember? unless, i wan my pimples to appear oh-so-clearly on my blog. like no way...

haa. so firstly went out ard ten plus, reaching tamp int abt eleven, just in time for the mall to be open. had breakfast cum lunch and probably dinner at ljs. no rice yest, just bread and fast food. so fattening. and headed to the mall for window shop. bot myself a new flat (yay-ness, like finally-finally) for $19.90. and continue window shopping.

took my sis from sch and back to home.

and because i'm so damn bored and takde keje, i go and apply makeup. ok, so giler. my mum was like, "takde keje ke ko?" but who cares. i've been avoiding from wearing make-up eversince that time i come back from malaysia. and i dont even wear make-up on hari raye adha until my mum was like, "asal tak pakai make-up? pucat jer muke" knowingly that i'm the daughter who likes to wear makeup everytime i go out except sch.

why no makeups? cause i feel that excessive usage of makeup have resulted in too many pimples. and thus making me feel that the medication (prescribed by doctor one, ok?) doesnt seem to work. so, i promise no makeup, not in the near future.

but the starvation (of not wearing any makeup) is like killing, can? and since i broke the promise by wearing make up on the colloquium day the other time just make me want to do so. and i kinda like the end results ;)

and because of that, i rush to work. haha, and i'm so damn clumsy at work. nasib tak short duit. and thanks for asking me do the freaking leceh dispenser. ergh, irritating, can?

ok. sch work to do and ut to study ;)

cheerios.

i hate you

2007-01-22T15:18:00.000+08:00

it just make one person to spoil my happy happy mood.

like all thanks to you can?

stop picking on me can?

b i t c h !

everything that make me smile

2007-01-22T10:06:00.000+08:00

i really dont understand why blogger is taking so long to load. or it is the sch connection, like as usual. like loading the pic of my blog bckgrd and trying to post an entry takes so long. bloody hell.

this is how my blog (new template, ok?) should be appearing. but all thanks to blogger for the lembab-ness!

good news, i'm gonna get another cousin this year. like yay. my aunt who get married last dec is pregnant already. one and a half mths. bunting pelamin. ooh gosh, like this raye, there gonna be additional baby in the big family ;) i so love that. so, wardina will get a new friends cum september or oct. insyallah.

i cant wait. things been good so far. like i have manage to all the big hurdles in poly life, like pp, ce and fyp. and now, things are much better. my work is gonna end prolly in march, if i decide to say it a quit again. see people, life is fair. its just the way we look at things ;) things are complicated, people are complicated so that makes life complicated but its always fair.

i so love it this way. cums thurs, its already into the fourteen week of sch. which means say gdbye to sch in three weeks time. i cant wait.

and to think of it, sch ends and work is next. so far, work is soo like a burden to me. and that make me feel like, i dun want to be a full-time work-er. get it? obviously i'm nt further study, well not yet. i want to but i know, its gonna be killin if i do. mane nak cari duit oii! i so envy dem that will continue study. but i've got the 3-yr bond to complete so its gonna be me and work.

part-time study? yes, i'll consider dat but not in this yr probably. need that break. and i'm not sure into taking something related to sci. maybe i'll take another diploma in business, hospitality, management or something like that. and den go on to degree. i want to do business, well just something that i comes to me only wen i was in yr one. ok ina, dream dream...

i sense (chey, sense per...) A for dis sem module grade. hopefully. insyallah.

enough. next...

i only have 3 hrs of decent sleep. like omg. but strangely, i'm no feeling sleepy at all. weird. just tired-ness in the eyes la. my sleeping habit is becoming worst. seriously, its either i cant sleep or i just dont have time for it.

my intention to sleep before the man u vs arsenal match fails. i cant sleep so watch ajl (anugerah juara lagu for short). it was ok. been few years now that i watch it. yupp2 ever since siti nurhaliza back out of the competition. but i watch it dis year. well, its all about the song (read = awards for songwriters and composers) not the artiste, celebs. so highlights of the show...

one# adibah noor won the overall, the best song, the best ballad song and best vocal. credits. its a nice song, great performance. so touching if u analyse the song properly.

two# can dayang nurfaizah stops showing too much of her flesh. teruk sey. beyonce per? c'mon, malays are malays. be good can?

three# omg. wats with the hair. mawi and mnasir. omg, omg, omg. da sewel kaper?

four# elyana fashion sense is omg. i kinda hate it but i like her daring attitude. dats differs her from the copycats artiste dats blooming like mushroom. she have her own personality, attitude and i respect that. cayalah. anyway; she wore red and black and look like a gothic broken bride.

five# omg. i just cant understand dis dangdut (indo/malay version of raggae) lady from indo. the move sucks. afterall, i'm not a fan of dangdut and will never will. rock never die ok?

so man u lose yest. they scored first, leading then them equalise and in the closing minutes of the match, they lose cause them scored. ergh. freaking. i was expecting a draw at least. but nvm. they are still at top and credits to liverpool for crashing chelsea.

guess that it. panjangnye post. that shows how bored i am of sch. ut 2mr and fri.

take care ;)

its all over

2007-01-21T18:19:00.000+08:00

yay.

i have 2 major reason to smile and be happy.

one; fyp is unofficially over. like yay yay yay! don't mean to be some stuck up ~~bitch~~ idiot. but colloquium is like o v e r now. like oh-so-finally, i'm f r e e! why unofficial? cause i've yet to submit logbook and the grades are not out yet. and oh, i'm not trying to be an idiot, but i feel i did present well just that the qna session was abit sucky?

two; my blog template is changed. still the same layout like the one before but new background and some changes here and dere.

ut on tues and friday.

work? aint sure but prolly on tues and sat.

liverpool won! yest match was just something that i've been wanting to see from liverpool. good defending and early victory. two goals in the first half brings the blues down.

sadly, man u match is tonight not yest. so i have to sacrifice the night that should be spend sleeping, to watch the match. man u must win to be nine pts ahead of the blues. bring the arse down. hopefully.

sorry, chelsea. i love you but at times i just have to hate you ;) ok, i sound like a two-timer already!

some pics to enjoy. old memories. i miss these kids

so gdbye for now ;)

i can't be bothered

2007-01-19T09:19:00.000+08:00

skip sch.

for sum reason that i somehow know of but just dont bother. like isnt there suppose to be any announcement that there is lab today? if they dont bother, i dont even wan to bother. ok, wateva la. i've skip the class afterall, so like who cares?

in the library currently. like wat the hell. like so bored. talking crap with people at msn, blogging and dun even bother to practice for collo2 or studying for test.

i'm so damn sleepy. sleep all the way from tampines to woodlands. all thanx to sleeping late. like, i'm so penat. my eyes are like stick with glue. super glue, mind you. or just make it super duper power giler glue. perh, nasib bole buka by the time reach woodlands.

can the sch be any worser. the taste of the muffin was like puking me and the smell of it, is enough to make me puke a bucket. but that obviously doesnt happen. skema jer lebih. one two bites and there u go, to the rubbish bin.

take care ;)

2007-01-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

back to the old template.

like no template is suitable.

and what the hell am i doing blog at this hour, knowing-ly that i have a test (that is still to be studied) and a fyp ppt slides (that is yet to be done) that must be done by today.

damn. bloody hell.

i like so want to give up. sabar2, 4 more weeks lah, girl!

and the freaking charger have just switch off my comp just now. like ka-booom, den black screen. ok, i was panicky all over. so giler, ok?

allah, just help me out for this few days, can? i'm so lost oreadi.

and happy muharram (read = slmt thn baru islam) cums this friday night. an advance one ;) may the gd year bring new hopes and all. insyallah ;)

2007-01-18T09:57:00.000+08:00

put away the pic from the template.

layout so blank. much edition later.

2007-01-18T09:32:00.000+08:00

i feel like smacking the batteries on the wall.

see, its like freaking 4 more weeks to go and the laptop batteries have gone haywire. so sadistic right. sometimes its ok, and on the other times, it decides to be such an evil.

this is making me go real crazy. how the hell am i suppose to do my work when the laptop is uncharge and the batt is dying.

enough bout that, can?

work have been ok so far. and the coming colloquium is just an additional stress. so lil time left me unprepared. come to meeting without even checking on the updates.

and now i'm so dead sleepy. puffy eyes, can? ah, tak cukup tido. like forever insomnia. i cant remember the last time i sleep so well and wake up only when i feel like to.

out.

2007-01-16T15:39:00.000+08:00

a new blog template.

temporary.

enjoy!

2007-01-16T15:19:00.000+08:00

fyp meeting yest.

work today and another fyp meeting tomorrow plus work in the afternoon.

so, the short holidays, doesnt sound like a holiday after all. work and meeting kind of sum up my days off sch. sumhow, i feel that i'm gonna cum to sch on thurs feeling oh-so-tired and all.

have yet to start studying for the ut this cuming fri and my colloquium is this sat. gosh!

have not much to blog abt, which cums to the reason why i haven been bloggin for days.
so some news that i'll like to talk about;

o1. becks move to mls. LA galaxy to be exact. i dont really like that fact, but who am i to say. i guess, becks is losing his shine ever since he quits being the england captain (and then kinda get ditch by mcClaren). whats more wit fabio capello taking over at real madrid. becks only starts as the starting xi for 5 freaking time. that could just be the reason for his lack of sharpness. but he will always be the one that motivate me to watch football and all. in fact, becks have been the factor that introduce me to watch football. ya ya, girls and football, people always come to a conclusion that we all (read = girls) watch football just because of the stars. i do previously. but not now. afterall, i'm not and nvr be a football bimbo. a true football fanatic is more like it ;) back to becks, i'll hope for the best of you and your lil cuties ;) and hope to see u back in the england squad, even as a substitute. u're still famous for ur deadly free-kick ;)

o2. i've been watch news abt aneroxic teens that is so desperate to be supermodels. supermodels is never equal to been thin, skinny, bony and all. recently, there's news abt a 16 yr old teenage girl who weigh 36 (or so) and have a height of 1.7m. ok, this is so damn crazy. i dun bother to even check on her bmi. its just so crazy the fact that want to be thin just to accomplish their stupid dream of being a supermodel. that does not gonna do you gd. no need ok? and some countries are trying to implement new rules for supermodels which i hope would works. no point being a supermodel if you have to suffer just to be someone that show off your oh-so-flat body. and its so not beautiful to be aneroxix and skinny and so lanky. soo the tak cantik, tau...

o3. the big clashes once again. liverpool vs chelsea and arsenal vs manu. how cool. i cant bloody waits. its gonna be this wkends. my predict, or rather who i want to win this clash would be man u and maybe liverpool? hah, the last time was chelsea and arsenal. let it be liverpool and man u. can?

ok dah. gotta get ready for work. cheerios.

2007-01-11T10:11:00.001+08:00

a new template to start off wit. a temporary one, thats for sure.

and my lil sis is back ;)

i love you la, girl. but then again, didnt get to spend my time with her. had work at 5 and end so freaking late. i was soo tired by then. had a hard time sleeping despite the tired-ness. and i was so damn blur at work. ya lah, one mth of absence is enough to make me forget a lot of things. but the colleagues been nice in helping me out. haha, wen the juniors teach the senior.

sch today is so freaking boring. enough said. another day of slacking. just tell me what the hack is the faccy talking. i'm kinda numb to what you're doing.

i guess this is gonna be the way it is till sch ends. stoning in one corner of the class, slack and just do nothing. nasib the grades before this was kinda good. i really am of no mood for sch. i'm like fast forward to 12 feb already. hah.

better end now. feel like i've written a pieces of shit here.

till den, much love people ;)

ps; am wondering to switch to the blogger beta or shud i just switch to another blog host? say, lj for example?

2007-01-09T09:53:00.000+08:00

hello.

i miss my baby sister!

she's off to camping in bukit timah. and i miss her alot. enough of being away from her for one wk early dec. now, its camping plak. haix.

come back soon, dear sis. i miss u alot.

i'm so close to her. well, so with the other two. but den, she's the most manja wit me. so i kinda miss not talking, or teasing her. cant wait to meet u lil kiddy on wed.

sch is boring. is and will never be was. have been slacking for the past 2 lessons and i doubt if i will put the thinking caps for today. my mind is away. at home prolly.

and that makes me feel like going home.

ok, ok. i really have to stop dis. i just gotta endure this 5-freaking-long weeks. and yup, colloquium is on the 20th. i'm like d-e-a-d already.

yest meeting bout fyp was scary. i feels like the whole 2 sems seems like a waste. but ya, everything is ok now.

quoting from a book i've read recently,

Everything's complicated, but all the time there's a journey that lead us through.

just hope that, that piece of words do some good to my thinking. ya, ya like motivate me to stop having a mindset like "sch is killin me!"

ok, enough of the complaining.

gtg.

2007-01-04T11:51:00.000+08:00

hello.

sch started? oh-so-badly for me.

flu. runny nose. blocked nose. cough. fatigue-ness. lack of sleep. and the what-so-evs.

that would result to me being so moody and lazy. totally no mood to study. pfft. sooo not a gd way to start sch.

takpe, sabar jer. 2 more mths and i'm out of this freaking sch. that would be total-happiness for me ;) neway, sch will end on the 12 feb. tak lame lagi tuh ;)

ut3 was good. got all As for the 3 modules. yay-ness. way to go.

a lot of things to do by this wk,
o1. submit the report
o2. call work. need to start work already.
o3. enjoy my 3 days (i got no sch on fri, remember?) of nothing to do before the week starts again on monday.
o4. get well soon.

well, no o3. is the most impt one. why? cause i know, life not gonna be easy when there's alot of things to do at the same time. like work and sch. den will be no more rest for me.

and hopefully i can get well soon enough before the week starts again. cant take the pressure of having to clear the nose every single time it gets block. eww.

ok, gotta do the work and rest rest rest...

cheerios.

ps: too bad there's no football dis wkend!

updates, updates

2007-01-01T17:42:00.000+08:00

heyy.

happy aidiladha and happy 2007 to all ;)

well, am ready for an update. a happy2 3 wks (or so) hols in malaysia.

07 dec
o1# back to the hometown. jemput by pak su ;)
o2# the 'berkampung' event. just comeback but there's oreadi an event. here, i can see the real malay beradat abisnyer wedding. btw, berkampung is when the family will start to seperate their task for the wedding ceremony itself

08 dec
o1# the pelamin being set up. beautiful but can be much beatiful. green is the theme. love <3 green
o2# berinai day

09 dec
o1# mndak (my aunt) had her tukar2 baju session. from minang kabau to bollywood style to vintage english wear. and the vintage english one is l.o.v.e!
o2# far, near relatives started to come. gotta meet the long-time-tak-jumper plus sedare-tapi-tak-kenal relatives. gd time to get to know them and updates2.
o3# did help mndak put the inai again at abt 2 am. to make it more darker.
o4# help my wan (nenek, granny in n9) to scrub the black kuali. perh, cucu misali eh.

10 dec
o1# the day. nikah, bersanding and watsoevs.
o2# the relatives going back to their homes. gotta miss u guy ;)
o3# end of event but yea, the start of cleaning up. penat sey
o4# open pressie time. which was so damn alot!
05# meet the not-so-soon to-be maksu ;) nice to tok to her

11 - 12 dec
o1# left wit cleaning up and get to noe the pk ndak

13 dec
o1# wen to taman mini malaysia and jusco malacca
o2# shop till u drop!

15 dec
o1# to kuala selangor, pkndak hometown
o2# to bukit melawati to see the kera
o3# a nite stay at firefly resort. plan to see the firefly was cancelled due to the rain. end up having dinner at a nice restaurant

16 dec
o1# breakfast at firefly resort and met a unique kueh, kueh hantu bungkus. but the taste was ordinary
o2# spend the night at pkndak house
o3# mndak bersanding for the second time that night, purple theme

17 dec
o1# the majlis bertandang
o2# brown theme
o3# wen back to hometown but stop by makteh's mom house

19 dec
o1# shopping time with cousins and sibling. had a great time wit you all lah!

20 dec
o1# to pedas wild wet world. enjoy the day and got to experience the hot-ness of the natural hot spring there ;)

22 dec
o1# intended to wen back to spore on this day but banjir. so get delayed

23 dec
o1# wen out with the cousins and siblings again. this time ard is to the cyber cafe to send my proj to them people

24 dec
o1# back to spore

dats all for now ;) cheerios

2006-12-25T17:12:00.000+08:00

i'm back.

will update soon.

cheerios.

i'll see you when i see you

2006-12-06T18:14:00.000+08:00

hello.

and goodbye.

well, this is gonna be my last post, well at least till the end of dec cause i'll be going to the hometown tomorrow.

yest tommorow morning ;)

i bloody cant wait for tomorrow.

enjoy ur holidays ;)

cheerios.

2006-12-04T12:51:00.000+08:00

hello ;)

no more work till the end of year. yupp2 (unless i decide to start earlier. which is prolly a big no-no).

and sch, one more day to go (excluding today, of course). wahaha. a lot of things to look forward. ending sch. means i'm 2 days a way from going back to the hometown and there's champs league final phase 1 match to look forward. its between dead-ness and alive-ness of man u's champs league for this season. i just hope the away win agst boro kinda lift their spirit up ;)

i'm hoping to get the 512mb memory card by wed ;)

oh, my eyes so the painla, tgk ni com lamer2.

scorpio daily horoscope
It's time to cut loose any ties that have been holding you back. Toxic relationships (or any situations where you feel like you need to 'work' to be loved) must go. Your spirit will be so much lighter after you take this step.

when you go, would you have the guts to say, "i dont love you, like i love you yest..."

ps: mcr song is super addictive. yea2, i dont have to guts to say that to the songs ;) dun fikir bkn2 ok?

sometimes i cry so hard from pleading

2006-11-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

a new template. and a song to entertain you. i don't love you, mcr...

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading

2006-11-30T12:22:00.000+08:00

waaaaa. tsk tsk.

i feel like crying! god knows that i'm fighting hard agst the emotions. i'm trying hard not to let any tears fall, feel like my hearts bursting already.

i miss mom and the 2 girls, dyla and fiqa. them people left for malaysia this morning before i wen to sch. sedeynyer. never thought that it could be dis bloody hard.

the hardest part of this is letting you go...

will meet you lovelies on dec 7. i cant wait. baru baper jam seyy, dah sedey semcm. ni belum satu minggu. weii, just wat is wrong wit me. haix haix.

cepatlah dec 7. quick2 cum.

my checklist goes a long, long one. mcm2 nak beli seyy. i just hope i dun forget to get the digicam fix before going back to the very much loved hometown ;)

work; they dun allow me to quit. have to work for 6 mths at least. bleargh. but anyhoos, i think its ok afterall. money in, ok? thats wat still making me motivated to go to work. so i'll go for a mth break and start work again on jan 07.

gosh, its almost 07 already. so fast and in three mths time, i'm a diploma grad. insyallah. just hope the path towards it will be much easier next year. more As to cum hopefully ;)

now, i wanna layan the emo-ness. mcr, thanx for the supply of emo punkrox songs ;)

it is a sad song, with nothing to say...

ps: 2 more post to 400 post after 2 years and a mth of blogging. statistics, statistics...

2006-11-28T12:24:00.000+08:00

hello.

well, before i start breaking this head of mine (read: start doing my research), i shall blog first.

not in a mood for school today. badly. my mind is somewhere else. really. tak tipu. bloody hell. and to get someone being super irritating around you is oh-my-fcuking irritating ok. tau, takpe. like hello, i'm not someone i am a year ago. i dont let people mess with me that easily. fcuk you lah.

last week of work. 3 working days this week and tralala, thats it. i cant wait, being free again, returning that bloody uniform =p

and i really, really cant wait for mndak's wedding that is. that's the main thing. that what bringing my mind away from sch and work. teehee. not really on the wedding but more to the balik kmpg thing. i miss my kmpg (balik kmpg, in my own words mean, being back to my hometown. and btw, my hometown is not at all a kmpg, for god's sake!). more to that, i miss shopping cheap cheap bargains there. hehe.

and yay-ness. i've done wit the logbook and did my report good enough (according to my fyp supervisor) that i did not have much to edit or add on. just a lil bit of here and there. i hope everything will go just fine. and be a new free me this cuming january. insyallah ;)

chiao ppl.

2006-11-27T15:42:00.000+08:00

hello.

fast2 update;

#01. venipuncture for lab 2dae. taking blood from vein of a fake arm.
#02. 5 minus one more freaking sch days to go! yay-ness.
#03. mak, dila and fiqa balik kmpg on this thurs. left me, akak and abah :(
#04. 7 nov, me and akak turn to balik kmpg
#05. officially assign as an unofficial camerawomen for mndak wedding ;)
#06. first pay for a new hp ;)
#07. dis cuming sat is the last day of sch
#08. one whole week (read: 3 schling days) of lab sessions
#09. lab for clinical trials? like what was dat for?
#10. man u draw wit chelsia. bleargh!

sorry for the lazy-ness to update ;) i'm estatic, excited and looking forward for the next 2 wks event!

cheerios.

2006-11-23T09:50:00.000+08:00

hello ;)

bday was great. i dont need presents just well wishes. thanx to the family, mndak, jilly, cindy, navin and those who send the smses and msg. i love you guys ;) and to start your birthday with a rainbow right infront of your door is so nice ;) god's creation. dont ever question.

in sch. clinical trials today. ut today. and the impt phonecall to make at 5.

i'm so much more relieved. i have decided and my decision is to quit. quit work, dat is. i was in a dilemma. of whether to take a break for a mth and start again in jan or to quit. opinions asked but decision have to be made from yours truly. aper lagi tunggu. just quit. i don't wait to say "i wan to resign" for the second time in feb or march (when i already graduate and get a job ;), insyallah.)

the grades have been good. and i hope it will stay that way. just dat i'm a bit dissapointed with a stupid comment by the fac. but i dun wanna bother. i hate you, and i hope you know it :x

ok dah. gotta start reading up. man u lose is a big2 problem. luckily the next match is in old trafford. go do your best, boys ;)

tata.

2006-11-20T12:11:00.000+08:00

We'll carry on,
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it.

holla.

start wit the chorus of mcr's welcome to the black parade. ya ya, i know the song is unlike me. but i listen to mcr alot. i think they rocks big time (tho' sum say they're gothic, but i think they're not, ok?). cant wait to hear to the other song ;) heard bout the review, the songs are mostly about dead, die, dying and wat so ever, but lets just listen to the song n music, not so much of the lyric. guess we are mature enough, to filter all those bad2 things, right?

so listen to it. well, to those who listen to head banging songs from mcr ;) dun go into the lyric so much, tho'.

so school has been great last week, aside from the fyp report submission. 2 blardee A out of the 3 modules. lovely. them 2 faccy, asma and arul are quiet lenient when giving grades unlike the other one. teehee. my grades are so much better this semester. already the eighth week, i'm only got one bloody C and 5 most-wanted A. the rest are Bs of course. hope the ut2 turns out well. the first one is C+, B and B+. better for the next one i hope.

ooo gosh, 2mr is my birthday. last year one was disastrous. crying on the bdae is sooo not nice. i just hope this year will be better. i dont expect presents wat so ever. i just hope i'm happy on that blardy date that i turn 19. hopefully. insyallah. prayers to god ;) and yeah, someone wish me an advanced bdae wish. cause our bdae falls on the same day and we just discovered it like 2 hrs ago? how funny.

3 ut in a week? stupidity, the perfect word. one of which falls on my bdae. alot of things to be studied.

rites, meeting at 12.30 and yeap, there's work to be done.

cheerios and a happy happy 19th birthday for me ;)

2006-11-16T11:55:00.000+08:00

hello.

feeling much better. just what happen the past 2 days?

3 am: finally went to sleep
8 am: woke up and laze ard
9 am: start doing on my individual fyp report
1 pm: finally, finally...done with my report. edit here and there. submit the report ard 4+
5 pm: some kind soul ask me to finish up a cnp unedited team report. i almost freak out.
11 pm: finally everything is done.

so end up sitting in front of the come till almost 11. bloody hell. i hate last min work. just imagine the stress of it. damn. skip work yest. like yay-ness. dat makes me happy afterall, even tho' i have to put myself in so much of stress due to the report submission.

i've decided to call it a quit at the end of this mth. even if i continue, i'll be out for th three wks in dec due to mndak weddings. so no point staying, rite? like after wat happen the past few working days, i've given up.

dats it for now. school have been really tiring today. lack of sleep plus the fact that i have no mood for it. just have to go with the flow and pray to get at least a B for today.

till den, much love <3

2006-11-15T13:06:00.000+08:00

HELP!

why is all this happening to me. once and again, i feel like breaking down.

where do i go from here?

the rain is falling heavily. the weather doesnt seem to be on my side, huh?

what a day, what a day?

can you pls help me!

allah give me the strengh, pls...

2006-11-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

can somebody save me from this kind of shit.

its already 11pm now and guess what, she will only send the results by 12 midnite. i never ask her to do it. i prefer discussion like i always do. but she prefer the other way.

i hate broken promises!

now what the hell i'm i supposed to do? wait till midnight and what?

am damn pissed wit them. feel like breaking down. and still there's still one that feel his responsibility is too big and expect me to compromise. fcuk you laaaa...

i dun care anymore if you wanna hate me for what i've said.

mock me if you want. i just dun give it a damn. anymore.

this frail fragile heart is just waiting to be in pieces. save my soul.

2006-11-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

hello ;)

so ya. today just sucks like always.

one# fyp just get more and more sucky by day. have to come to school on my off day tomorrow, just be devote myself on fyp. god knows how pissed i am with them people. the reason why i didnt write much about what about fyp that makes me pissed is because i dont wanna create troubles with them people. but i just cant take it anymore.

the fact that i was given stupid reason like, "my mum wanna go out so if i dont go back now, i'll be lock out of house". god knows how pissed i am with her. too much of stupid reason. i dont care if she speaks the truth or not, but come on la, even if that really happens, cant she just have a piece of her mind to fyp which the report is due next wed?

the least that i can hope now is my grade will come out just fine. i just cant be bothered.

two# saw a baby on the way back home. sooo cute. guess she just aged 2 months. aww. cute giler sey. i miss the moment of carrying a baby. so long eh. baby wardina, wait for me during the december hols ;) that cute big babe.

three# i feel so wrong when touching bout this. but i couldnt help. some maids are being abuse mentally. take the example of my neighbours maid who being abused by my neighbour who have a very "kohok" heart (read: filthy and dirty). the maid is a muslim and she is forced to cook pig or pork (which way is correct) and now, the new maid, also a muslim, was not allowed to pray. ya allah. may allah understand and forgive you. kesian ok. i just hope that that neighbour of mine got punish for what she did.

okla. tu jer. alot to write but later2 ok.

2006-11-07T11:22:00.000+08:00

a new template ;)

from blogskins. am to lazy to do my own. this few days have been very hectic and i end up having lack of sleep.

erms, lab today. love the lab session but having to wear shoes and bring lab coats is so damn irritating. and yea, have to bring along the monitors to school today. double the trouble and the heavy-ness.

i've given up hopes of passing with flying colours for the fyp. i'm so dead when it comes to fyp. non-ut measurement is not moving. work have been occupying my free time and i've yet to finish my fyp report. and that have always been the reason why i wanted to quit work. i'm not up to working. not just yet. i cant take the pressure of doing thing fast with quality.

some people can be just plain irritating.

2006-11-06T12:48:00.000+08:00

hello.

am so sleepy. blamed chelsea for that. and in return they lose to tottenham hotspurs. but away of course. haix. but on a brighter note, it gives chance to man u to stay on top for quite somewhile. thats love.

so yesterday, did a lil shopping. hehe. erms, and ya, end up spending all my bucks in the wallet. nvrm that. a smile on the face is always better then an empty pocket. the pay will only be out by the end of this month. by den, i will decide to stay or to quit. or maybe to still have no decision yet.

not very much to write about. too lazy, i bet. plus the schoolwork not done yet.

till then, much love.

2006-11-02T12:23:00.000+08:00

hello.

i'm in school rite now, and gosh, i'm so damn tired.

slept for only ard 4 hours. work ends ard 11. balik, mandi and everything, is already almost 12. and i couldnt sleep despites being so damn tired from the 7hrs of work. make that 8hrs cause of clearing up the counter and counting the sales. guess end up sleeping around 12+.

and i woke up 3.45 only to see man u losing to copenhagen. wasted? maybe la. but i guess, playing away is never easy. just ask chelsea, 6 yellow cards is way to much. but of course, a draw is better den losing.

C+ for heam ut. damn la. plus the fast that she refuse to give me A despite my effort in participating and answering questions. favorism. geramnyer! its the second time and i really dunno whether i can survive this module.

work is killing me. i have yet to finish the fyp first draft report despite its due date on the 15 Oct. I really have to start updating it before its too late. god know, my life is a big mess now. feel like quiting work but its just a mths. maybe in dec? or maybe till i graduate. i dont know. the buckeroos are very much needed, tho' not for an important cause but still. haix. i dunno if i can survive through this till i graduate. i just hope Allah give me some light. i just cant take it anymore sometimes. hope this is temporary.

okla. today just sux. like wats new, kan? i'm just gonna do my part and go home. some people just love to get on my nerves. like whatever la...

chiao.

2006-10-31T22:44:00.000+08:00

hello.

i decided to delete the whole chunk of shit i've written. sounds so stupid.

school have been great. well partly because the grades have been good. but den again the first heamatology ut just sux.

a new blogskin is on its way. something of my own design hopefully, but with no pix of myself. no qn ask.

i'm watching rock at tv3. how gross. the puking scene. eww-ness.

football; chelsea vs barca again 2nite. its barca at home now. hopefully its chelsea whose gonna win.

liverpool is also having a match 2nite. cant wait ;)

ouh, beckham back to man u would be nice tho' it sounds impossible. but den again, there's new report that say man u do have interest on becks. but i just dunno which report to believe. whatever it is, i dont wan beckham to go to the MLS in USA. big no-no, can?

work is gonna be alot dis work. ut dis fri. coming back on off day sux, can? i hope i can juggle and separate time wisely. 7 hrs of work 2mr. just hope for the best ;)

okla. till then, much love.

2006-10-28T10:38:00.000+08:00

hallo.

a new template yet again.

bloggin at this hour on this day? teet. was checking the mails cause mak ask to see if her friend dis send the recipe. hehe.

work was tiring. 5 hrs. and next wk, 3 days of work. so penattla. wen back late yest, like ard 11. haix.

going out today. jalan raye. to the relatives house. 2 to be exact. got to where the new white baju kurung ;)

cheerios everybody ;)

2006-10-26T13:41:00.000+08:00

woohoo.

its the third of raye oreadi ;)

and i've only visited one house (that's nenek one, btw). yet to collect more then 50 buckeroos (and dun think so). my raye just sux as always.

but on the brighter side, raye is raye. ask for forgiveness. i'll always tear. emo, emo freak.

first raye, wore the over-size green kebaya. second raye? wore work uniform la. blargh. i miscounted money and have to pay up 6 precious buckeroos. damn. i hate it.

and third of raye. aper lagi, skola la. pathetic. and today is way to much of bad luck, i tell u...

#o1. there's no money, bus concession in the ezlink. last resort; went down the bus and meet mak for her ezlink. total embaressment.
#o2. bus 169 decide to be cruel to the republicans today. like i was alreadi on time (tho' was headed to school abit later coz of the ezlink thingy). the bus decide to not stop at rp bustop. like wat the hell. its obvious that there's a lot of republicans boarding the bus but dey, decide not to. damn. so i have to alight at the next stop and walk to skewl.
#o3. reach class at 8.50. second best time :x

okla. pix to be uploaded later. hehe. raye pics.

cheerios.

p/s: get jab 2dae. got work to go 2mr, 5 to 10 pm. pfft.

2006-10-23T12:39:00.000+08:00

holla.

finally the template problem is fixed ;)

so, work was ok on sat. and they called me up on sun for work but i've to turn it down. why? to geylang :x

yea, last mins shoppin for baju raya ;) bot a white one. hoho, just attracted wit the design. bot sum kuih and dats it. no more geylang for dis year. i hate dat place.

pix to be uploaded later. have yet to transfer.

grp changed today.

gt A for clinical chem. thank youla. long awaited. deserved it? well i think its just another of my average performance. but who cares.

football; chelsea vs portsmouth, 2-1.

yea, sheva n ballack scores for chelsea. woohoo. finally, finally sheva scores. lovely ;)

man u vs liverpool, 2-0.

courtesy of the 500th-appearence-for-man-u scholes and rio ferdinand.

real madrid vs barca, 2-0.

yeaah, raul n ruud makes the day for the real madrid. hehe. i like it dat barca lose ;)

dats it. the eve of raya. besok rayeee! not dat i'm all excited. but ya la, its once a year afterall.

ok, an advance selamat hari raya for all :)

2006-10-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

holla.

blogger seems to be irritatingly irritating today. like posting the new template takes a ke-zillion years. i have to settle wit dis for now cause it seems like its not moving.

i got work 2mr. fcuking lazy la. gosh. and its 5 hours tomorrow. one week of not working, i hope i can still remember the way work works. lol.

its a new template. bright colours, instead of the dull (beauty) coloured template yest. and i post it up at my blogskin acct. check it out okey?

okla. tu jer. saje je nak waste time antar post, can?

2006-10-19T22:05:00.000+08:00

holla.

yea yeh! new template. finally, finally. after much await. geram jugakla nak find a template dat really suits me. just one thing that i dun like abt it is the wording on the text area, "reminiscence" and "roses". i'll just have to edit that off, anytime i'm free.

and yea, finally the report is done (not dusted). ya allah, that was really a tough thing to do. consider the temptation of wanting to change the blogskin and stuff. but anyway, manage to finish it within 2 hrs. so imagine if i've done it earlier. i would be better right. aiseyy, ni budak...

erms, so work called me today. i'm officially accepted. pfft. half of me wanted to let it go but the other half wanted the benefit of being accepted (think money!). and so dat is it. have to open a bank acct and get jab. chett. dats the price i've to pay, anyway. so work dis sat (nooo!) for 5 hrs. dats more buckeroos.

football; in your faces barca. chelsea won! yea! and so did liverpool. but chelsea one is interesting. again the turn around and swift it to the goal, drogba. he is such a talented guy. and boulahrouz, he is suberp, amazing. i like! and because of him that ronaldinho, left stamford bridge being a loser. haha.

hilario debut was great. but den again, all thanx to the suberp defense. terry, calvarho, cole and boulahrouz.

and crouchy thanx for saving liverpool (like you always did!).

pics that i owe...

p/s: what to where 2mr?! fcuk lab!

2006-10-18T20:43:00.000+08:00

holla.

i'm kinda pissed now. wtf, i've been searching for new template for more than a week now. this is freaking crazyla. i'm just to lazy to do my own template but the ones in blogskins have yet to match this taste of me. pfft.

moving on, i've yet to actually start on my fyp report. am done 80% with the intro but not yet for the other part. omigod, i dunno wen i'm gonna finish this shitty thing. its due friday. heard me? pretty fcuk. not forgetting the search for an article to be include in lit review that is still un-searchable and thus un-done.

and tada, my first C for this sem. more to come, huh? fcuk. i've expected dat she's the one who's gonna grant me wit my first C. argh. damn u. she'll never ever gonna give me A. i sense favoritism here, since the previous sem. i have a big feeling dat she done like me, big time. and wat do you think of she giving me an A. its like wait long long la!

and mak is very bz asking me to clean up the house. its raya in less den a week and not much of prep done. on top of the list now is to get the house ready for raya. i'm so busy wit school (not so much of work, now dat its a week i'm of work. like wth!) and fyp. omg.

shopping for baju raya is prolly dis sun wit the family. a really late one. i dun bother. having a new baju raya or nt is really no big deal for me. growing up, raya to me means more than having ur house so well decorated and wearing new fashionable clothes. so no big deal la. and for the first time ever, we're nt gonna make any kuih raye. the never-ending busy-ness plus adik having a tight schedule at school, kinda make mak and the rest have no time to sit at the kitchen baking cookies.

on the other hand, receive a kad raye from my old pri school friends. you remind me of the great ol' memories. she never fails to send me a card everytime its raye. me? always forgetting. but den again, u'll always stays in my heart. friendship dat i'll cherish. may we meet one day. thanx for always remembering me ;)

i've a pic for it but it seems blogger cant upload it. next time, ya...

football; 7 quick updates on the champs league...

#o1. rooney was made captain yest.
#o2. superb performance from rooney (especially him) and the gang!
#o3. becks wit his 100th appearences in the league.
#o4. i think the spaniard ref made a big mistake of denying henry's goal (consider me not a fan of him plus arsenal)
#o5. man u had 100% win, on top of the table.
#o6. man u vs copenhagen, 3 - 1. real madrid vs steaua, 4 -1. arsenal vs cska moscow, 0 - 1.
#o7. its chelsea vs barca 2nite. the blues w/o cech, wat do you think?

till den, cheerios.

2006-10-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

holla.

so like expected the fyp non ut measurement doesnt go as well. pfft. i cant be bothered anymore. when people start to show that they are not interested, wat am i supposed to do? the feeling is very the hurtful tau. haiz.

so clinical trial was kinda ok. didnt noe of such sentiments being felt by the other teammate about another teammate. macam2 la. pening lalat ini kepale. haiz.

so after skewl, was meeting wit akak at city hall. didnt noe the journey from woodlands to city hall took dat long. so i spend like more then 30mins in the mrt. so long of not doing dat. remember the old days of going to skewl wit mrt.

so we meet ard 4.30. walk ard city hall. bot polar and some drinks n titbits from 7eleven. it was so the kecoh i tell u. both of us are on m/c (girls, u noe it) and we try to curi tried to eat which obviously fails. to girls out dere, no matter wat the reason is, eating at public during fasting mth is a big no-no! ok?

took some pics, took 10 back home and drop near my old skewl and walk home. very the kecoh i tell u. teehee.

the haze is still nt gone yet. coming back again. on and off. the smokey smell is chocking me and my eyes get blurred at times.

wat on earth! how can i forgt such an impt thing. lil did i realised that the champs league is 2nite as in this morning. lucky abah tell me. random fact, only abah and me watch football regularly. yea, now dat i watch epl.

cant wait to see man u, rooney back to action. hope he'll do well or at least maintain his form like the one agst wigan. and yea, a goal will shut the mouth of dem people. so go go go!

teehee.

nites.

2006-10-16T12:11:00.000+08:00

holla.

am at school now. had lab earlier dis morning. wen to school as early as 6.30, reaching around 7.50. lab was uber cool-ness, pricking fingers for blood cholestrol test.

am freaking pissed off today. fyp, that is. fyp reports to be submitted dis fri. like wat the fcuk! telling me earlier should be fine, but last min? wat the hell.

that does not include the fact dat there is missing teammates for the bp measurement. but thank god, 26 peeps today. better den last wed. so next up for fyp is, the report (like duh!), non-ut bp measurement on tues and ut bp measurement on wed. haiz.

football; england vs croatia. expected. but credits to rooney for a good performance. paul robinson make lotsa great saves but one small mistakes kills it all. i wont condemn dem. true, dey dun play dat well, but mocking dem do nothing in a way. and mcClaren shud have called becks for the tournament. dats one big mistake he did. becks may not be as gd as before but he gots the experience and just who dunno his great set-pieces.

man u rox! winning away is always great. plus wit 3 goals. rooney put a great performance. liverpool on the other hand, just manage a draw with bellamy scoring his first premiership goal for liverpool agst his old club. and drawing at home sux.

chelsea's game agst reading was soo damn interesting. 2 goalkeepers have to be replace for chelsea and 2 red cards each of the teams. but chelsea meeting barca for the champs league dis wk, losing peter cech is kinda a big blow.

ok. dats all for the updates.

cheerios.

p/s: prolly dere's no work on wed. woohoo!

2006-10-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

holla.

a fast2 update.

i'm in a rush to watch football. the feeling is just so nice that i really wanna blog.

man u beat wigan, 3-1. all thanx to saha, vidic (his first goal) and solksjaer (his my man!). am too happy dat i really wanna blog bout it.

now, gotta rush and watch liverpool in action. we'll see if they decide to be good or to be a fool. now goooo!

teehee. cheerios. enjoy ur weekend. well i'm loving mine ;)

p/s: why is it too difficult to find a decent blogskins that really can suit me? pfft!

its not just about winning or losing

2006-10-11T22:14:00.001+08:00

holla.

today, is one of my hectic non-skewl dae. why? i was late for the fyp stuff and end up to have only 10 students (its below expectation, duh!) and i was rushing back home to get ready for work.

pffft.

penat and so damn sleepy. my first 2 hours at work was like hell. i was so damn blurr and cant even concentrate on wat i'm doing. ngantuk seyy. less den 6 hrs. i really cant have less den 6 hrs sleep. too lil, not to good for me.

i'm so damn pissed wit dem people. one overslept, another tot it was on another wk. omigod. i'm alread so late for it and i cant rely on just the other two to get more den 10 students. i doubt if we ever gonna reach 200 kiddies. pfft. and consider the ever-so-late kids. 8.30 for ut? too late la.

there's football 2nite, work at 12-3 tomoro. ut to be studies. lab and ut on fri and the very not-bz-at-all weekend to look forward.

england vs croatia? bet who's gonna win it. croatia playing at home and scored 7 goals on sat. england playing away and scored no goals on sat. tell me who is at advantage here. england, at 5th position in the world, are they good enuf to beat croatia? i'll just say draw is already good enough.

been long since i take a pic of myself. a pic taken abt 2 mths back...

cheerios everybody ;)

time is flying without wings

2006-10-09T11:50:00.000+08:00

holla.

2 wks have past now. raye is cuming in 2 wks time. how fast time flies (when i tot they dun have wings?).

i'm in class rite now, rotting. nt because i'm tired but because of boredom.

i really do get irritated when stupid2 question is ask to me. you noe how tight lips i am. but all i have to say is when you have faith (in Allah), den even the biggest problems can be solve ;)

went to skewl early. reach skewl as early as 8. wat else if its not for fyp. and i'm so pissed wen the results dun seem good. 20-1 peeps for the day, is way to lil. kids nowadays dun bother about their grades? am i right to say dat?

work on wed in the afternn. pffft.

england draw wit macedonia. at home. at old trafford. how stupid does it sound. they can win agst macedonia at skopje, why cant dey win at home, old trafford. but its better to have a clean sheet den to lose or to allow dem score any goals.

and france? lose to the scotts? and spain lose to the sweeden? bull-shit. aint a gd football wk. we'll see on wed.

guess dats it. the weather been fine now, after all the hazy smokey days at home.

cheerios.

its a turntablist

2006-10-05T16:18:00.000+08:00

holla.

a new template anyway. i'm no used to having one template for long especially its wit my face in it. so a new one. dats a turntablist anyway. i have no reason for putting dat, just dat i find the design quite cute. pinkish and all. thanx to appendix2 for the image. credits to u ;)

updates2, lets start wit...

work; yest was fun. learn lotsa new things. the colleagues been nice too. excuse me for the ever-so-blur face. teehee. but wen back with backaches and all. standing for three hrs can be such a chore, huh? teehee. chet, baru 3 jam. am i complaining to much? but wateva it is, i'm starting to love it.

ut 2mr; did a lil prep for it. understanding the slides and all. i didnt expect dat she'll give me a B even after the lacklustre 3rd meeting debate on tues. tot dat its gonna be a C. but tak kisah la. the B is very much needed anyway ;) and yea, have yet to get any A (one i tot i really deserve it the other day) and a C. so kinda good la.

fyp meeting 2mr; not any prep. i'm still searching for the journal article dat is nowhere to be found (unless if i subscribe to it, hell no!). and have yet to finish the intro part of the report. i'm too lazy for it. will see in a few days time, ok?

sat and sun is very much awaited. i'm free on both days, no work. maybe i can start finishing the report and did a lil study for the upcuming tests ;) and of course watching football <33

and have u heard pink's you and your hand and stacie's i'm not missing you? nice...

dats all for the updates. too long, eh.

cheerios.

alive but dead

2006-10-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

holla.

yay, no skewl 2mr and thurs. but dere's work. wat a drag. at 7 and the memory of last thurs still as fresh as ever. slip and fall. wat a pain!

wasnt in a mood of a proper update. pfft. i've been wanting to change my blog template but not wanting to design it myself, blogskins.com is the best place to turn to. but unfortunately, its getting boring.

skewl have been really tiring. fasting and going to skewl. plus the extreme boredom. i'm totally pissed wit the grade. so much of being a lil more participative den usual doesnt make a diff. felt take my effort have gone to waste. its nt dat i dun deserve it, its just favouritism.

and today was debate for third meeting. i sux at debate! errgh, plus the fac dat the faccy was so damn boring. gosh. too much of formal-ity is too boring for me.

football; man u is back on top. chelsea just have to accept the draw wit aston villa and liverpool decides to be a fool once again. i tot they were back on form, but nope. rafa's system just dun work it right sometimes. too bad.

euro08 qualifiers the cuming sat. cant wait. but too bad, no haegreaves for england.

no van nistelrooy for the oranje, no raul for spain, no beckham for england. seems like their glory years have passed. but i really wanna see becks back for england. but wit his kinda form, doubt so. mcclaren have far better choices.

dats all for updates. here and dere. bits and pieces. be back to skewl on friday wit fyp meeting at noon and ut in the afternoon. wat a drag. but just enjoy the 2 days break aites?

cheerios.

2006-10-02T08:49:00.000+08:00

holla.

dis entry is specially written to my dear sis.

Almost 19 years of living with you have never once makes me feel you are nt needed in my life despites the anger dat sumtimes tend to build-up between us. the great time we had together all this times stay in my heart for a lifetime.

i will always love you, my dear sis. i will always be there wen you need me and you can always count of me ;)

may you be blessed with a better life in times to come and so too the relationship.

love you. happy 23rd birthday =D

there you go. well-wishes for you. i cant express how much i love you in words.

and this entry would me, i'm no more on hiatus. teehee. lotsa stuff to tok abt but lets just get back to work.

cheerios.

2006-09-25T10:00:00.000+08:00

days have nt been good.

i have really no idea why i should be feeling down and stress myself out.

maybe i need more time to reflect on myself and the happenings.

for that, i would officially be on hiatus till i wanna blog again.

and on a happier note; slmt berpuase (happy fasting)

cheerios everybody!

2006-09-22T13:04:00.000+08:00

skewl's net is down. like wats new.

shux. the first day of skewl sucks big time. nt at all in a mood to study. luckily, there's no skewl 2mr. dats love.

job interview. wed, the training day. the buckeroos are very much needed and therefore doing that kinda job is ok for me. as long as dere's halal money in, its good enuf.

guess wat, the fasting month is approaching. 2 more days, today and 2mr. very much looking forward even tho there's a drag of going to skewl without food. but 18 years of living teaches me day i can go a day w/o food, so its okey dokey.just dat i have no mood for raya. spending it here, in spore with the family here. i love my family but nt them people. shall nt mention. and dats eating up the good moods. pffft.

i pretty much hates it when i have to indulge myself into others problem. i too got alot of problems here. indulging myself to others one, will create a much worser effects. but me being me, i dun like to let others done. so i'll have to lend my ears and share my thoughts. i hope i dun end up being hated in the end.

finally liverpool won. maybe they've decided nt to be a fool. huhu. and i really love xabi alonso's goal. beauty-fool-ly classic and world class.

another round of football on saturday. hoho. wat a life.

cheerios.

back to the ol' hectic days

2006-09-20T12:58:00.000+08:00

holla.

currently updating from the home's computer.

and taadaa, no skewl 2mr. so this is it. the timetable is out. my off days will be on wed and thurs. my so called 'sat & sun' or 'weekends on weekdays'. teehee.

yea, so no skewl 2mr. its kinda expect tho'.

anyway, to dose who start skewl 2mr, all the best. teehee, i got extra off day.

dere's football today rite? liverfool vs newcastle, rite?

cheerios!

the sweetest revenge

2006-09-19T16:54:00.000+08:00

a second entry for the day. teehee.

bet its a revenge for being unable to post my entries since the net has been down all time along.

in case u haven notice, my template have been changing since the past 2 days, despite the net being oh-so-irritatingly slow. nt a major changes, just did a lil editting on the pic. and finally, i'm kinda pleased wit the outcome. teehee.

its kinda irritating when u tried to make sure everything blends well.

now now, when is the timetable cuming out? 2mr is already the last day of holiday, mind you?

cheerios.

for better or worse

2006-09-19T14:55:00.000+08:00

holla.

skewl starting in two days time. gosh. i'm soo unprepared. of all days, i really have no idea why the skewl wants to start on the thursdae. well, maybe to get rid of the tots of monday blue.

the other day fyp meeting, well, did go as expected. luckily. help another the frens team for their fyp and headed to the woodland's library shortly after dat.

and bot this at the end of the day.

if you wanna ask me how it taste, i'd say u dun have to waste ur money wen u can get one of a kind with a cheaper price. but den again, to feel the excitement of having a kit-kat bar stucked at the center of the ice-cream den u should go ahead. any thing with a pure-chocolatey taste is love to me so i dun mind.

anyway, fyp report, lit review going on well. thank god.

to the ica 2mr, to settle the last phase of the passport stuff. such a long process.

champions league; chelsea and man u won. lovely. liverpool, for being a fool, have to settle wit a draw that dey feel kinda satisfying and real madrid, lose oh-so-badly to lyon.

epl; i'm so sad that man u lose the other day. the late goal from adebayor is really a great shock for me. i tot a draw wud be nicer than a win but too bad. arsenal was better dat dae. but i hope dey'll do well for the match agst reading. hope by den rooney will be back wit his magical touches.

chelsea on the other hand had a great2 goal from drogba. i like him, drogba. such a talented striker. and too bad, ballack have to be red-carded.

the ghost tree; to think about it, i just believe its just another wonderful god's creation. stop being superstitious and all. lets just think that its something created naturally.

cheerios.

2006-09-13T20:12:00.000+08:00

holla.

results for last sems out. 2 B+ for lab managment and histo. 2 Bs for analytical instru and med micro. i must say its quite satisfying. but the fact dat i'm getting B+ for fyp was rather dissapointing. nt dat i expect much but i really hate it wen things dat i give full commitment doesnt turns to be what i expected. so much of putting ur heart and soul to it.

a hectic week, i must say. 2 days in a row, i went to da malaysian embassy to settle the passport stuff. and to add to it, the bus ride 2dae was really irritating. just dun wanna mention.

the can drink design looks cool eh. bot it at one of the vending machines at the m'sian embassy. cute-ness.

for the past 2 days, my cam stick wit me all day long. and so the outcome of such pics. i might be crazy wen i go the cam wit me ;)

fiqa. she followed me this time ard. and she wen straight to her tuition afterwards. teehee. thanx girl ;)

choco-ball. its so finger-licking good. altho' it looks a bit distorted her. but the taste is, heavenly. so the nice i tell u.

yest nite/today morning, i get to watch chelsea vs werder bremen (hope i gt dat rite). nice match to watch. and ballack, thanx for saving the day. i wouldnt noe what will happen if lampard take the penalty shot. ballack shot was superb. right at the top corner. dat is wat i call a good penalty taker. too bad klose and frings have to do wit the 2-0 lose to their club.

2nite or rather 2mr morning wud be man u and real madrid. cant wait to watch!

dats it. nt very much of a proper update. i'm tired la. and dere's fyp meeting wit the team mates 2mr. hopes its not cancelled/postponed again. get over and done wit.

nice song by nidji, sudah.

nidji - sudah

Salahkah aku
Mencintaimu
Memilikimu
Menyayangimu

Jangan paksakan kita untuk
Slalu bersama
Jangan paksakan kita untuk
Slalu mencinta

Salahkah aku
Mencintaimu
Memilikimu
Menyayangimu

Bila kita harus berpisah, sudah
Biarkan ini semua berakhir, sudah
Cinta memang tak harus milikki

2006-09-12T15:40:00.000+08:00

holla.

wen to malaysian embassy 2dae. renew passport. well, lets the pics sae it all.

not in a mood for a proper update. maybe 2mr yea.

champions league 2nite =)

cheerios.

2006-09-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

holla.

how bored i am dis few days.

thanx to football for filling up the days. neway, liverpool lose to everton, 3 to nil. chelsea and man u won in anyway. 2 to nil for chelsea and 1 to nil for man u.

really, i've gt not much update.

chipsmore buttercrunch is nice. but the original one is better. teehee.

till den much love.

2006-09-07T16:33:00.000+08:00

let me start wit a quote from uefa.com

"italy may be world champions but memories of that July night are fading fast"

hoho. the sweetest revenge is to always prove that you can do much better den dem. in your face la, for all the controversies over them, the italians winning the world cup.

and losing 3 to one is just something too bad for dem. huahaha, a sweet revenge, after all. so much so of winning the world cup but for the euro08 qualifying rounds, their first 2 games were bad. a draw and losing is just too bad for a world cup team.

germans kick the hell out of the san marino, 13 to nil. the best ever game i've watched so far. that is love i tell u. hehe. podolski make hatrick plus another goal. teehee. i really love the game. best moment, when klose just have to dribble the ball slowly into the goal. cool-ness.

england, a lil bit dissapointing tho' they win. one to nil is not a good figure la. but all thanx to the tall and lanky crouchy. hehe. his nt bad after all, yeap wit 11 goals in 14 appearences. but den again, i think dat is nt enough.

hehe. soo three hours of sleep. hoho. how much i love football. watch 4 matches in a row from 3am. almost doze off while watching german vs san marino but the goal fiesta make me fully awake. 13 is just an amazing number, rite ballack?

wen out just now. lunch wit akak and the family. hehe.

finally i bot my foundation powder. pfft. after dat maybelline one dat turns to be nt suitable for the face. so hopefully dis one works.

till den ;) much love.

2006-09-06T13:56:00.000+08:00

holla.

been some while since i blog. yea, net been down, on and off. right now, i'm busy doing the fyp report. like finally. teehee. going on the introduction still. teehee.

over the weekend, i manage to watch england, germany and france in action again. football, euro08 qualifying rounds. and yeap, 2nite or rather 2mr morning will be another round of the qualifying rounds. teehee. dat will fill up the rest of my week.

and the other day fyp meeting was once again cancelled. haiz, tell me how am i supposed to do? so when is the next one? a cancelled a.k.a postponed meeting again? tell me sumthing i dont know.

on one day she bought home a thumbdrive, on the other day, she bought home a videocam. suddenly my sister becums so gadget-ty. teehee. and she doesnt even have to poke any hole on her already so small pocket. in other words, she gots it for free.

the ost of heart is so sweet. another indonesian movie.

my heart

disini kau dan aku
terbiasa bersama
menjalani kasih sayang
bahagia kudenganmu

pernahkah kau menguntai
hari paling indah
ku ukir nama kita berdua
disini surga kita

reff :
bila kita mencintai yg lain
mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
sayang ku akan hilang

if u love somebody could we be this strong
i will fight to win our love will conquer all
wouldnt risk my love
even just one night
our love will stay in my heart
my heart

cheerios ;)

2006-08-31T18:28:00.001+08:00

holla.

4 days since i last blog.

where'd i go? no where. serious shit. i've been stuck at home doing nothing. the hols is so damn boring. but i'm nt looking forward for skewl.

anyway, i'm addicted to submitting my blog template to blogskins.com. ok, its crazy. yea, i do like to make blog template since long ago but i only submitted it recently, as in yest. so far 3 blogskins. check it out at my blogskin acc.

lovely. and yeah, i change my blogskin again. i'm so in love wit playing wit the ~~codes~~. crazy-ness!

ct look gorgeous, i tell u. preety. i love the gown she wears and the new song she sang, cahaya cinta. such talented person. its a waste if she stops. i lurvey-durvey her potong-cake gown and the gown she wears at the balcony. cantik. pictures to be uploaded wen i'm free ;)

cahaya cinta

dia telah menentukannya kita bertemu dan bercinta
inilah oh takdirnya bukan kerana harta
inilah citra cahaya cinta

pintu hatiku telah kau buka
tak mampu ku menafikannya
kejujuran diberi kasih takkan terhenti
ini bahagia yang ku cari

sayangi daku peluklah daku
janji denganku semai cinta nan satu
tuhan menguji takkan berhenti
hanya ku pinta sama setia menjaga
hingga ke alam syurga

fyp meeting the other day is cancelled. nothing new, rite. but i'm too lazy for that meeting anyway so i dun really give a damn. anyway, i was like laughing my lungs out wen i read about the reason (or shall i say excuse) given by one of them. teehee. very2 laugh-able.

i've yet to start on the report and not in this few days time unless forced to. seriously, i'm not in a mood. will see later, yea.

aites, till den. fyp meeting 2mr. ergh, the lazy bug just caught me.

toddles.

2006-08-27T16:24:00.000+08:00

holla.

not much updates. yea, the holidays been boringg.

ct's persandingan is 2mr. cant wait to see. i'm a lil pissed wen i read berita harian 2dae. bout her solemnization the other day. dun expect all the reporters to enter the mosque. respect la ckit.

the talks abt ct does seems to go away yea. always the bad sayings and i hate dat. pls, let her have her life to herself. sometimes people tend to talk without knowing the actual facts. maybe u should join rp so as to learn how to listen from reliable, trustable sources and to listen from all sides and nt just one.

ouh, bout mawi and her ex. omg, get a life la. why make personal life so public? to an extend of publishing a book telling bout ur personal life, where's dat dignity? if u wanna change den u shud forget the past la. in this case, even if i dun like mawi, i'm on his side. dun be too desperate. we're women/girls/ladies, we have our dignity to take care of. gosh, wat on earth la...

football; watch 2 matches last nite. loves. chey. liverpool vs west ham and man u vs watford (aint sure if the spellings rite). both my fav won. football really made my dae. to watch chelsea 2nite at 11.

tkcr.

2006-08-25T13:59:00.000+08:00

holla.

another day spend at home. boredd la.

tu la bile time school, sibok mintak nak cuti. bile da cuti, boring la plak. teet. tak sesuai btol.

still have nt start doing the report. blame my laptop for being such an addictive toy.

ouh, i watch football yest. i miss watching football ok. such great time i had during the world cup seasons. and yeap, i watch epl. man u vs charlton atheletic. 3 to nil. chey-baa, they all play so the ganas la. serious, tak tipu. very so attacking and very the scary. cam anyone can easily get injured. but yea, the game no rooney cause he kena ban for 3 matches.

n yea, i'm havin problem sleeping nowadaes. omigod. how difficult it is to get to sleep. dats why i end up watch yest nite match. aint sure if its live, but it is the newest season one. and i woke up kinda early la. if u consider 8 as early, dats the time i woke up. all thanx to akak for being so considerate. yeah rite...

and the eyebags. they love my eyes, dont dey?

fyp meeting next tues. will see who will turn up and who dont.

the wisdom tooth is growing and its kinda eating the cheeks. sakit seyy. ouch!

ok. till den, much love <333

2006-08-24T16:36:00.001+08:00

holla.

a new new template ;)

been long eh since i have pictures for my entries ;)

so here u go...

taken on 23rd july. been long seen we wen out together rite, dila? teehee.

taken on spore's national dae. ayiee, i'm nt patriotic. but dats fiq in her brownies unform. see dis kiddy is a brownies. she's the only and only that join a uniform grp. how cool.

15th august; self-shot photo. huhu, shiok sendiri seyy. teehee.

taken on 16 august. that day were i send my sis to her workplace wit a errr...bicycle. malu tau. she was kinda rushin and since i was late wen we supossed to meet, so i have to send her la. she is one heavy sister.

18 august. the day wen i skip skewl. teehee. was in the lift to meet akak.

wen out wit akak for lunch 2dae. to ljs tamp. yea, snapshot while she's eating.

taken 2dae ;)

fiq wit her cute action. she just wen back from skewl. teehee. and guess wat? she wore's mom beverly hills shirt. one crazy kid ;)

and look at dat. on one hand is our home phone and on the other, is hers. hers? her phone? see, at the age of 10, dis lil kiddy owns her own handphone. so unfair. teehee. high tech la budak ni. but yeah, its only the ol' 3210 tho'. mom gonna buy her a new one. errms...

thats all. enjoy the pics.

take care.

2006-08-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

ooo yeah.

finally a new template.

still a lil vintage. lotsa wordings, less or rather no pics.

words/quotes are from ashlee simpson's 'beautifully broken' lyrics. heard it? kinda nice la. the normal ashlee.

i made dis template! wit the help of blogskins, of course. well, the image is mine. but the codes is from blogskin. i've linked, creditted the one involves and woohoo, there u go!

i like it.

and people, pls stop dis rumors/bad-words u're trying to spread bout ct. she is my favourite. still is, and will forever be. so dun u sae bad things about her. she's married her, respect her will u? i do believe she speaks the truth bout dk ex and i believe she dun do anything to breakdown the already broken family, so please stop speculating.

dis is human being. their nature. nvr will dey leave the person in peace unless dat person already r.i.p la. stupid2 people. plsss, stop speculating things. exxagerating things. u make things worst ok.

ok la. till den. i'm in much love with my blogskin tho' it need several major editting.

its tough designing the background. pfft.

aite, peace. till den, much love <33

2006-08-22T12:38:00.000+08:00

holla.

was in gd mood initially. but now i'm nt because its too boring.

to skewl 2dae. the last dae of skewl. pfft. for the first time, sarina only use 3 out of her 8 leaves. teehee.

god noes how boring i am now. 2 grps sharing 1 freaky book. bull-shit!

10 ppl gone missing for the fyp non-ut measurement.

oh yea, yest. ct get married. she looks soo sweet. omg. i'm nvr against her marriage wit datuk k tho' at first i was like 'erm wat the hell?'. but yea, after all its her choice, her life and i bet she took into consideration lotsa things before making the impt choice in her life.

and i must sae, i'm pleased, egg-cited, esctatic to see her moving on to the next step of her life, marriage life, dat is.

and yea, dads bdae falls a dae before her solemnisation ceremony, which is on the 20th. happy birthdae, Abah! much love <333

i have had alot of things in mind to rite last nite, but i wen blank as to wat to rite 2dae. short-term memory loss -.-'''

to change my blogskin soon. i'm loving dis one. so sayang the vintage look. but i get bored of looking at the same one over and over again :p

in search of a new blogskin. in the to-do list for the hols. i bet i'll be changing my blogskins alot :p

a long post dis is. i bet. i'm in such a mood of writing a long post.

i wonder how cum i tend to rite in english wen i'm much better in malay. how weird.

ok. lame. crap.

till den, much love <33

2006-08-21T09:57:00.000+08:00

holla.

i made one serious big mistake. maybe not too big or serious. the impact of miscalculation sumtimes can lead to serious shit. just hope dat everythings gonna be fine. like wat's been planned.

mood swings. i hate those.

nt in one of my best mood. and i hate that to.

evrything seems nt in place. mess up. bah! this sucks.

sumone, unofficially, hire me to photo-edit her pics. such compliment. sumone appreciate my work =)

aites. nt in a mood to start work. oh-so-sian la todae.

pftt.

2006-08-18T15:49:00.000+08:00

holla.

skip skewl 2dae. it wud make no diff even if i cum 2dae.

wen out for lunch wit akak. tot of trying kfc chicken chop but yea, its full. so we have lunch at oh-so-boring mcds. btw, akak gt a new job. at ocbc bank. thanx god. hope its the permanent one. insya-allah. and hope she gets her pay soon. hp here i cum ;)

i tried a new browser. yeap. now i have 3 browsers running on my com; ie7++ beta, mozilla firefox and opera. opera the new one, anyway. kinda cute. trying to adapt to it. but mozilla is still the best. and in case u dont now wat browser means? its actually where you surf ur net. and for those of u whom still stuck to ie, its time for u to move on to a new one. ie is boring -.-'''

for the hols, i tot of working. but yea, that will nvr happen. too lazy. so, i've planned to get my basic driving test be done dis hols and to finish up fyp individual report. hopefully. mum got sumthing install for me, which is to clean up the house for the month O.-'''. yea, while she bz sewing the baju dat ppl tempah from her. i bet, i'll get sum of the buckeroos. so no need work la. teehee.

cuming to skewl on mon and tues. i'm kinda in a gd mood.

and yea, true enuf, things dun get moving wen i'm nt ard. the importance of me.

ok lame.

peace.

2006-08-16T20:22:00.000+08:00

holla.

i'm feeling good now. thanx god ;)

set aside fyp. i'm left wit a lil bit for the experimental part. phew! finally its moving and ending pretty soon. but yea, several of dem still aint moving. pffft!

i gt ut 2mr and still yet to study. bah! dila, its ur fault ok. u noe how addictd i can be wen doing blog layout. i change dila's layout to a new one. nice ;) check it out here. and so my afternoon was spent on dat, nt studying wen i'm supposed too.

and now, i'm busy updating the blog.

there's a reason to be happy? yea. 2 As from my previous weeks ;) an A for lab management ut. that kinda make me feel happy. hehe. and dere's lab 2mr. histo. u noe how much i adore histo lab? very much. my hearts to histo ;)

chet. cam org giler plak.

ok, gotta go study. gooooo!

;)

i'm gonna change my blogskin! but i love dis one. how??

2006-08-15T12:25:00.000+08:00

holla.

i'm definitely not in my best mood. tuesday-blues la nari. i can die of boredom, i tell u.

2mr is wed. i'm sooo looking forward. skewl been sucky la. lesson is not dat sucky, just dat i have no blardiee mood to absorb anything. bleargh. and its nt really skewl dat made me feel dis way but rather fyp.

you noe how much i wanted to finish my fyp? very much. alot. uncountable. i really wanna end it soon, put it off my sight and be happy but the problem is, dem seems cant be bothered. maybe i misunderstood but if so, tell me. i getting tired. i dun wanna cry just becoz of fyp. i'm a big kid, and therefore small things like this shouldnt be the reason to cry.

emo shit.

can i beg dem to understand? fyp is really killing me. as tho i'm doing it all. but of course i didnt la. but its just to big for me to handle. i get tired of it. and the best thing to do is to finish it all, fast. its causing me alot of stress, set aside the dissapointment (read = last tues incident) that i get along the way. i really need a break from all this shit.

haiz. i dun wanna comment more la. heart-break, i tell u. the sems gonna end and if its still undone by den, its gonna be a bit diff.

yest ut? gotta sae, i regret not studying much for yest ut. damn, it was do-able i tell u. one part of me was like, its gonna be dead-hard and therefore i refused to study more. i got this funny attitude, i can go home from class not understanding anything but go into ut, understanding everything. i can study on my own without anybody teaching. which is how i did eversince in sec yrs. exceptional a few subjects, of course.

and yeah, i didnt clear my doubts and unfortunately that was ask. if only i read up and understand more. things would be better rite.

oh, gimme my weekend!!!

invisible; like as if, i dun exist. speaks the language dat we understand, will u?

2006-08-14T12:08:00.000+08:00

argh.

i'm so pissed off. sorry yea. i really got nowhere to spill out dis anger.

i dunno why is it so hard for them people to end dis shit as soon as possible. stop wasting time and lets get moving can?

bullshit people.

and i beginning to think dat dey feel i'm forcing dem. bull.

stop dis shit can? i very da malas to layan oreadi.

and therefore, today, i shall close both eyes and shut the mouth and frooze the hand from typing to dem.

c'mon, u and i wanna do dis, end dis as soon as possible rite? so lets move on.

and ouh, i cut my hair the other dae. short.

i dun wanna do work 2dae, can?

2006-08-14T10:34:00.000+08:00

holla.

i must sae a lack of updates, eh? just wen dis i late blog? wed? count check, 4 days of no updates?

i have nt much updates anyway. nt ones that i'm willing to share.

last fridae, i must sae, it just doubles my anger and frustration. And to hear her voice makes me real mad. plus de fact that she dun bother at all after wat happens on tues and the phonecall by mum. dissapointment.

watch cars and pemburu emas yamashita over the weekend. ok. i noe, its a old2 one. one thing abt me, i think going to the cinema is a complete waste of money. for now, i mean. i'm nt earning money here and therefore i shouldnt be wasting my money. i'll juz wait for my sis boy to get the movies for us. easy can? no money waste. i can watch it over and over again and obviously i can watch it at my own time. need i explain more.

bout the movie, its nice. scenario's lastest is nice. better den wat i expected. cuteness la dose orang kemetot. cute i tell u. anyway, i believe dey do exist. such cute people. cars was awww, cute. i like the cars. and i like radiation springs, lightning mcqueen. teehee. cuteness.

i'm nt in a mood to do work 2dae. blardie hell. i'm pissed actually. i rather nt tell why. it just dat i gets angry wen there is lack of seriousness in doing things. plsss la, can u dun do dis to me?

and yea, i'm nt a demanding person and dun let me become of one.

why is it so haard for sum people to understand. i'm gettin tired of having to be the one taking the initiative. wat happens if i just buat bodo? nothing will happen i guess.

bullshit.

ouh, dere's ut today. darnn!

2006-08-09T17:12:00.000+08:00

holla.

yest was damn, a nt gd dae. feeling of dissapointment was just to big to just express it in words.

i'm supposedly wanted to post yest, but the net been down. so here's wat i've written yest:

before i start, let me warn dat dis post is gonna be freeaking long and is all based on anger. if u dun think u cant tolerate such post, leave as u wish.

ouh, i dunno where to start. yea, i'm feeling so damn angry rite now. how dissapointed i am? very very very dissapointed. the long years, dis is what we got? sumthing that we dun deserve! we, in this context, refers to my family.

i gotta admit, i am a very family person. i love my family thru thick and thin, tho' i got scoldings at time, get sad at times, i still love my family. no matter wat. unconditionally. and when people hurt my family, i feel it. very much. like what the malay say, "cubit peha kiri, peha kanan terasa". i may nt express it in words and sumtimes my actions is abit too harsh but, i still love dem anyway and i believe dey do too.

and i really cant take it when we are treated like dis. u noe, its been more than 10 years ok. 10 yrs is a pretty long period considering our age. no doubt, the bad words comes our of our mouth at times but good words are dere too. but ur reaction, how u treat us, i'm so damn dissapointed. and like hello, u're ending it in such a bad way for my sis wen other get it all good.

and i get emotional easily, a side of me dat not many have see. try hard to be strong but inside, i'm as fragile as ever. i teared looking at my sis cried. oh gosh, my sis seldom cry ok, and wen she cries it shows how much she is hurt.

damn u!

i dunno if i'll be able to forgive u. i dunno. i dunno how long i will bring along dis anger that is building up inside of me. i seriously dunno. u hurt my sis, u hurt me. u think we have no dignity? fcuk u! fuck, fuck, fuck. all the middle fingers for u.

we paid ok. its not much but its not little either. consider my family income as not dat high, we still can fork out the money and as compared to others we paid quite high. fuck u. if u think money is the issue here, well to hell to u! u dun have any feelings is it. idiot.

omigod. i dun think we deserve such treatment. dis bad mouth of mine keep shouting vulgarities eversince. god, forgive me. and from just now, i just cant stop from saying 'go n die' and 'gi mampos'. oh, feel so sinful seyy. but i just cant help it.

and for such a long time, i've been such an angel, 2nite, i showed middle finger to dose idiots. no sorry to be said. i dun farking understand why u have to peep at us everytime we walk pass ur area. u started it, u dun expect me to end it. chee-bye. stuck-up bitches. dun ever dare me. and to think that u're beautiful, u cant fcuking dream on. i dun fucking care and pls, before i poke ur eyes, move it sumwhere else, ok!

suddenly, i sound like i got a lot of enemy. i dun anyway. i not someone who like to cari pasal one. i mind my own business, dat is for sure. its always u who start it and me, in anyway, will not end it. dat is me.

i tot dat the short break will be a good one, but what happens today, change my mood. oh, just hope dat i wake out feeling better 2mr.

god, forgive me for what i've said. i'm just another soul who makes mistakes. and ppl, sorry for making u read dis.

i just dun understand :(

and wen i woke up dis morning, its nt a good one. well, i just dun wanna tell wat happen. haiz.

i sucks la. i hope i dun have to face her dis fri. i'm not in a mood to tok or even look aat her evil face.

ur mask look so real.

but i guess all dis make me stronger :)

and yea, dis wk aint a good one. again.

dere's ut 2mr. fyp on fri and i bet the non-ut reading will turn out to be real long. chasing after dose kids. omigod.

anyway to dose who cheer me up, well indirectly of course, thanx.

wipe those silent tears, carve ur sweetest smile, move on wit life like nothin happen...

2006-08-08T10:10:00.000+08:00

am i too demanding?

is wat i ask so difficult to do?

why the hell do i have to face dis kinda idiots dat keep running away from their responsibility?

or it is me who dun understand? expecting others to understand?

hopefully dat wont make people hate me...

i just wanted the best for all and if dat is seen as sumthing bad, i'm really sorry.

but i'll nvr gonna hate myself for being so coz i have tried to do my best to help not just me, but others too.

fcuk!

2006-08-08T10:00:00.000+08:00

holla.

i just feel like bloggin but yea, dunno wat 2 rite.

not much happening yest. xcept dat i wen back real late la. well nt dat late but wen i have no ut, i get home realli early tau. so yest, no ut but i wen out of skewl ard 5.20. woohoo. da skewl really look kinda empty ard dat time. just ppl gettin ready to get home.

reach home ard 7. just in time to catch up asar prayers ;) the journey is kinda long eh. dun care if u take 969 or 168. tho' i prefer the former one. 168, havin to go down at the library, cross the road and wait for forever before the bus come. and all in all, it will take up the same timing as if i take 969. mite as well take 969, less hassle tho a longer journey to tamp.

the hols in 2 wks time. to cabot? no. doubt so. grades aint good. at most, i wanna make sure that its all fill wit Bs, no Cs. a promise to make. but the temptation? nvr in my yrs in RP, i never skip skewl during the last 2 wks of the sems. oh so me.

to cut my hair. 2mr prolly. wit condition the shops are open. its national day 2mr. and fcuk its on wed. so make no diff eh. wed is off dae and i really hate hols dat falls on wed. bleargh.

layered, v-shaped and shoulder length. ok?

teehee. my hair is too long now and wen bundle up, looks real big. so its abt time, eh? akak, dila jom ;)

hehe. till den, much love <33

2006-08-07T10:16:00.000+08:00

lol.

caught final destination 3 yest. i noe, its been ages la final destination 3 is in the cinemas and bla bla. but its a nice movie. i've always love the movie, their sequels and all. oh, its just so scary eh if dat really happen to us.

what happens wen the truth is a lie. oh and oh and oh, so scary eh...

just found out sumthing crazy, scary, stupid and watsoevs. i feel so dead wen i find out abt it. why suddenly got so many hyprocrites ard me. i just so sucky eh. i just dun realise their presence until the whole truth came out.

to believe or not is not the problem. but wen my senses say so, can i nt believe?

haiz...

2006-08-05T16:27:00.000+08:00

holla.

the day seems ok ;) teehee.

i check out my predicted grades and B is a sure one for all. B+? maybe one or 2. hopefully more la eh. so have to get a lil more As for daily grade and UT. deal? yea, hopefully.

happy wit the results? errms, kinda. tho' nt up to my expectation yet yet. try next cum last sem eh?

a lab report to be submitted on mon. team reports. wen de rest doesnt seems to care, who do u think will have to do it? crystal clear and doesnt need much elaboration, aites? oh, shux.

i didnt intend to go anywhere out dis wkend. to rest and rest and have alot of rest. seriously, its one tiring wk.

its sumtime quite unpredictable how people react to things eh? weirdo, i am...

lol.

to do lab report, to rest, to study for ut, to get the As, to settle the fyp stuffs, to have fun and to forget all the setbacks, to smile and smile.

and there u go. its juz another 2 wk plus...

and i'll be stepping to the final semester of my years in rp and graduating, in say, half a yr time?

till den, much love.

feeling a whole lot better. thanx god ;)

2006-08-04T21:41:00.000+08:00

hallo ;)

i'm nt in my best of mood but i'm trying to be happy, at least.

the days hav nt been gd. 2dae itself haven been good. pretty much tired of life eh.

ouh, heard peterpan's new song. in case, u dunno, peterpan is a indonesian band and dey dun fly anyway. the new song, kupu-kupu malam.

very nice. if u wanna ask me bout the melody, i no nuts about how to comment on it. but yea, its really a nice song. lyric wise, i got a big feeling dat its about a prostitute. aint sure. well, dats the purpose of songs, to hide behind the bush and if u are clever enough den u'll understand.

hoho. soo, here's da lyric...

kupu-kupu malam - peterpan
ada yg benci dirinya
ada yg butuh dirinya
ada yg berlutut mencintanya
ada pula yg kejam menyiksa dirinya

ini hidup wanita si kupu-kupu malam
bekerja bertaruh seluruh jiwa raga
bibir senyum kata halus merayu memanja
kepada setiap mereka yg datang

dosakah yg dia kerjakan
sucikah mereka yg datang
kadang dia tersenyum dalam tangis
kadang dia menangis di dalam senyuman

oh apa yg terjadi, terjadilah
yg dia tahu Tuhan penyayang umatnya
oh apa yg terjadi, terjadilah
yg dia tahu hanyalah menyambung nyawa

oh apa yg terjadi, terjadilah
yg dia tahu Tuhan penyayang umatnya
oh apa yg terjadi, terjadilah
yg dia tahu hanyalah menyambung nyawa

2006-08-04T11:58:00.000+08:00

i really dun understand eh.

sum ppl juz like to crack their head, cry till dey bleed becoz of they failed in their relationship, bgr in paticular. ok, i may nt understand. i've nt been in such situation and maybe wen i experience one, it will be worse. just who noes, aite?

but seriously, i find it a lil too weird. why bother if dey wanna broke of wit u and all those shit. and for those desperate idiots hu find it scary to be alone, what da hell is wrong wit u. we are never alot, there's always family and friends and above all, there's god. omg. feel lonely because u gt no boyfriend/girlfriend is a lame excuse to get urself involves in a relationship.

dis is just my tots and opinions. sorry if it hurts, neway. written by someone who is nvr involve in any relationship yet. reasons why i'm nt? i'm nt ready for any commitments. not just yet. lets nt mixed studies wit relationship yea. just follow the flow, its much sweeter dat wae. hoho.

teehee.

2dae sux. change grps as per usual. the only module dat i'll nvr have a fixed grp. coz my members were always absent. sad sad thing hor. and yeap, dila spoilt my mood in the early hrs of the dae. so u can pretty much expect my mood of the dae.

and fuck. dere's fyp 2dae. the non-ut measurements and meeting in the late afternn. bullshit. i'm too lazy lah todae. and yea, everytime i'm da idiot who have to shout to the classes i wen into for the bp measurements. who tiring. juz where did the other go. and i wonder if they remember we have any bp measurement 2dae. god, help me!

i'm too lazy and blah yada yada...

hating dis to the very core. why must it happen 2 me? i have enuf of everything and dun give me dis kinda shit anymore can? help!

sometimes happens without a reason, or rather, without me realising the reasons behind it ;(

2006-08-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

i just tot of bloggin at dis kind of time.

somethin just strike me, eh. how weird. how humiliating. well, prolly i just misunderstood. but it just happens to be dat way, or so i think. maybe dis is how humans do their thing. big liars, hypocrites. oh, how i hope i can just spill my tot. but me being me, i never do that. i respect people, even if dey dun deserved such kinda respect.

well, maybe its true. good charlotte, the world is black. well, metaphorically la. people just let it happen and never wanna stop it. and so nothing change. just get more wilder and wilder. and so there's no colour. and so its black. and black is evil.

ouh. i really dun wan the history to repeat. i'm worried sick. bleargh. pray that everything gonna be ok. ergh, damn.

and, it seems that this week is aint a feel good week. there's nothing to look forward. more to having burden at my back. labs and yea, the fyp. i really wanna get it over and done with. the reports, the non-ut measurements, 2nd colloquium prep. get the hell out of everything that have get to do if fyp. i so sick and tired of it. yea, this is prolly the thousand time i've complained bout it. bleargh.

help!

2006-08-01T12:06:00.000+08:00

holla.

just cum back from lab. ate polar's hot dog roll for lunch ;)

be neglecting my blog for quite sumtyme. ouh, life is just too bz eh.

i'm too lazy to do my ppt ;x malas seyy.

mommay bot for me 3 new long sleeve top. love ya, mom <33 bot alot of new tops eh. now i gt like 12 new tops. 5 short sleeves and the rest are long sleeve.

ouh ya, 2mr is wed. off dae ;)

i have work to do but i'm to lazy to start on it and i'm so damn freaking bored!!!

2006-07-30T16:13:00.000+08:00

holla.

5 days of not bloggin, eh? been bz n hav no time.

lets start wit saying my deep condolesence to the family of late hani mokhsin, malaysian actor and teevee host. to hani karmila, the only child, daughter to him. to be honest, i'm nt a fan of him but i must say he is one good person and the industry did feel his lost.

movin on, lets start wit wed itself.

sux. one big sucky thing. i was awake at 5 freaky am. its wednesdae, ok. like hello, wed is my dae off and guess wat? i cum to skewl at 8 freaking am. blardie hell. and guess wat its for? fyp. for a cancelled fyp due to the fac that my fac is late and therefore bp measurement cudnt be done. fark!

nvrm dat. went out wit akak in the afternn. accompanied her to her "interview" session. and wat the hell, we were lost. ok, we took 19 and we supposedly have to take a woodland transport bus sumwhere before the airport cargo. and yea, u have to pass thru the aetos peeps before u can go to cargo. and yea, before the aetos peeps gets us, we get to dem first. and to tell the truth they are suck up peeps. dat place itself is full of gatal drivers and motorist. eeeeww.

and we decide to forget bout the interview and wen window-shopping. yea, window shoppin only =p

thurs; to skewl. was kinda pissed off wit some things. sometimes, how hard we've tried, we still cannot be the best to ones eyes because of the existance of bias-ness. sick ass ppl. bleargh.

fri; kinda ok la. was a bit drag dat i have to do fyp which in the end was a failure, again, again, again. but the year2s are such a sweetie. sum was really nice, eh? teehee.

sat; was at home ;p

sun; wen out. bot more tops ;) lovely eh. cam da kaye jer asyik shop. i wan a new phone, can? teehee.

aites. dats the update. kinda long n boring. sorry. chiouz.

2006-07-25T12:41:00.000+08:00

holla.

i just finished updating my fyp logbook. writing nowadaes is such a heavy chore for me, eh? naik penat tangan tulis. plus wit my fingernail yg long. nt that i keep long nails but i just cant cut it now. heh.

i find it damn irritating when people cum out with their own decision without discussing. dun care if it doesnt involve me, but the problem now is, i'm involve so pretty well discuss first before cuming to a decision. bleargh.

today, is slacking dae ;) other than updating my logbook, i dont have mood to do any work. i must sae dere's alot of unlucky-ness today. dis morning itself dere's like four five of dem.

but i'm still in my feel good mood. teehee. hope nothing cause any change in mood.

i dont believe hypocrites are still around at large in this era. like wat on earth!

c ya!

2006-07-24T14:20:00.000+08:00

holla ;)

i'm still in my good mood. i loike. naper eh, nari cam happy jer? hee.

why is the skewl toilet so dirtyy? smelly and all dat. eww! gross factors.

ate my lunch. old chang kee, dat is.

i'm so in love wit my blogskin, and that explain why i wanted to blog so much tho' i dun have anything much to rite.

its 2.20 and the fac is missing.

till den, much love.

2006-07-24T09:43:00.000+08:00

holla.

i'm in a damn good mood. i dunno wats the exact reason. heh.

in skewl. omigod, i gt an A de other week. another one, 2dae? yea, hopefully.

dere's ut 2dae. hope its gonna be easy ;)

i really dunno wat 2 rite. neway, i'm kinda addicted wit good charlotte's the world is black. yea, noe how much i like listening to punx rox songs? very much ;)

oo, gtta start researching. the problem kinda easy, eh? teehee.

tkcr, much love.

2006-07-23T20:45:00.000+08:00

holla.

wen out 2dae. but some new tops ;) didnt bot the skirts like wat i've planned yest.

so next up for my wardrobe wud be; the green & brown skirts & adidas jacket.

just hope dat i manage to save just in time to buy dose things. aite? yea ;) hopefully.

watching high school musical at disney channel. nice show. go watch. and zac efron is cute, eh? and the song break away is really soothing to the ears.

dere's ut 2mr and i did study yest. and will do some revision for 2nite.

i'm feeling good ;) yeaaaa, dats good. lovely ;) hope it lasts through the week ;)

teehee. tkcr ;)

2006-07-22T18:55:00.000+08:00

holla.

as told, i did changed my blogskin.

and yea, i did it all by my own. credits to me ;)

well my comments on this layout? so vintage! i love the pic after all. cam time old skewl days. the bench itself look so vintage. love the brown. yeehaa. wat makes me fall in love wit it in a matter of seconds is, its done by me. hehe. i took like 3 hrs to finish it all. of course the code come from here and dere la. hehe, anyway great job ;) some lil discrepancy tho', well go figure...

i was thinking of shopping dis weekend but unfortunately i just dun have the bucks wit me. will see 2mr. the sales are still on and the fact dat akak gt alot of membership cards, its very impt to use it to full advantage. get wat i mean?

was thinking to get the adidas jacket dis wk but my bucks still nt enuf yet. another weeks to cum maybe. and if i went for shoppin 2mr, which is a big if, i might wanna get myself the skirts. yea ;)

oitt, i need to kick start on studying for mon ut. just hoping for the best. sometimes C looks ugly even tho it is still a pass. haiz.

tkcr, doddles ;)

2006-07-22T16:42:00.000+08:00

holla.

ouh, i wanna blog but just dunno wat to rite.

maybe a lil later in the dae.

bored. so damn free. ut cumin ard, but haven start studying yett, mayb a lil later in the dae.

to change my layout soon. so check it out.

tkcr. will be back soon ;)

2006-07-21T09:56:00.000+08:00

i hate today, can?

long dae. med micro ut todae...

a lab report to be submitted at 8 pm. yet to be done...

wit ut, i'll be back home ard 6.30 and will be out again, be back ard 8.30. tell me how am i suppose to submit dat bloodie thing? bullshit...

and 2dae's class is just so suckyy!

hopefully dere's nuthing bout fyp. not now, not today at least.

help!

2006-07-18T09:35:00.000+08:00

holla.

today is gonna be a loooong , booooring dae. blardiee hell.

hating today's module to the core. boring-ness. wats more wit teammates toking in a different language during discussion. the minority, am i here. such sad things. how idiotic can one be sometimes. blearghh.

i think dis has just gone over, beyond its limit. i too have patience ok. and wen you cant cap the bottle, it mite burst and explode sometimes.

and 2dae, is nt a good dae. blardie hell. awake at 5.15. to skewl at 6.20. reaching skewl at 7.50. waited for the "princess" till 8.15 and she doesnt appear. wat da hell. and so i decide that i shud forget abt doing any bp measurement for fyp dis morning. wit just 2 of my teammates ard, i doubt if much cud be done.

i'm too tired for class. no mood. and wat da hell dere's ut todae. cheet. study? yeap, i did yest. and yeap, i wen to bed early yest bcoz i can affort to have less den 6 hrs of sleep wen da dae is gonna be long. haiz.

and ouh, bout ct. one shocking news. yeap, the rumors, which eventually is true, came to be the truth here. my god. i never tot dat she is gonna marry a man wit 20yrs difference. after making people guess bout it for long. hah. some hilarious things. and yeap, when i listen to the news yest, its kinda shocking eh. and i cant help laughing my guts out. still in disbelieve-ness. chett.

but if dey we fated together, wat am i to sae. its all in god's hand and i shant question bout it. let it be between them and gone. i've got nothing to sae.

blearrrgh. i dun wan class 2dae, can?

2006-07-17T20:24:00.000+08:00

breaking news:

Siti Nurhaliza
is getting married with
Datuk Khalid M Jiwa
on 21st August!!!

my first tot, what the hell. on the second tot, well dey shud give a try. afterall, all this things are fated for them. i shant tok much about dis. maybe on the next post, ya.

to study for histo test 2mr :x

2006-07-17T09:21:00.000+08:00

teehee.

back to skewl. the whole dae yest i tot it was saturdae. of course, i'm wrong i noe.

watch too fast too furious: tokyo drift. kinda nice movie. the cars are damn cute, sophisticated. yeah2, gonna get one, one dae ;) chett, berangan.

and a reason to go to skewl 2dae, cause i can watch over the hedge from my com ;) coolness. all by myself. like yest, we, as in the family, watched it together on my home com. bleargh, so today, all by myself. wit condition, i finish my work early ;)

ut todae. to hell wit it. i studied on sat and sun i just enjoy myself ;) i'm too tired la dis few days. lack of sleep. i just managed to get a good nite sleep on sat. the blardie tired dae.

i just hope i did ok, enuf to earn a B or B+ grade overall for this module. killing me softly.

so just go wit the flow todae. i kinda hate dis module because of the fac. well change of fac recently and i find it hard to get good grades from her. yeap. but well she gave a good comment last week ;)

wat makes it sucky wen the people around u tends to change the channel while discussing. hope u get wat i mean ;
just a qn to ponder abt. if u got a good class participation, in other words graded A for class participation and ur rj is B, isit nt enuf to get an A for the daily grade. like wat the fark. i didnt get it and i'm damn furious at it. n yeah, i learn a lesson, ask qn dun help at all times :(

okla. long-winded eh todae. just too bored and too lazy to start research :p

2006-07-15T20:17:00.000+08:00

holla ;)

dere's always a reason to smile.

and yess, the a reason for me to have a big big smile on my face.

yeap. its over. over and done wit. lovely;)

i loike. but yeah, still a lil lil bit of feeling scared. the results, dat is.

so yeah, colloquium is over. the first one, dat is. the second one? ouh, just dun remind me of dat.

how does it goes, kinda ok. i didnt stutter. yesh! well wen all the blood pressure is too high, i tend to student. those pressure and stress cause me stutter but i didnt. chet. but of course la not dat well. dere's still sound of nervousness but i presented it the way i wanted it.

so now i just how the outcome will be good. hopefully. just see if the big big big smile will turn more big big big bigger or it turns sour. just hope its the former one.

sumhow i gotta agree that high blood pressure can cause headache. like wat happens to me after presentation. but its gone now. thanx goodness.

heh. dats all, i think. heh. take care and ouh, there's ut on mon, tues and fridae. fcukk...

2006-07-14T08:29:00.000+08:00

to run and to hide...

dose things i really wanna do. noe why? cause i'm freaking tired of dis fyp things. been having less sleeps because of this and dats bad ohkey. going to skewl wit bloody sleepy eyes.

yeap yesh yesh, colloquium is 2mr. omigod. send shivers to my spine. doing the mock presentation 2dae. i'm scared. hah. dat presentation counts for 25% of my grades. tell me if i should put a smile on my face. dream on...

dere's like only 5 peeps in the class and its freaking 2 mins to 8.30. bleargh. merging grps again? no, no. not 2dae. wen i feel everything is so damn sucky.

and wat da hell, ut2 grades aint good. one D+, another C, the rest unknown. wat on earth...

ouh, i bloody hell miss world cup. do you? why cant it be once in 2 yrs? haiz. and abt zidane, bet everyone noe now wat da hell dat matterazi do to him. wat a good footballer. makes trap just to win? how fair? very da nt fair okey.

aites, tell den, take care. just wait for wat i've gt to rite abt colloquium in the days to cum ;x

2006-07-11T12:07:00.000+08:00

holla.

fyp is really killing me softly. why? i have to keep on approaching classes. asking dem to complete the consent & survey forms and take their blood pressure.

if its only as simple as dat, i've wuden mind.

but them people got alot of qn ask. sum dun wan to participate. aiyo. i can go crazy.

n guess wat, i wen to my successful computing class ;) dem people still remember me. n guess wat dey sae? "eh, u our senior rite?" chett. terharu seyy. teehee.

collaqium dis sat. gosh. seram seyy. i'm just left wit buying my pants for the formal where. lots of thing to settle before the collaqium.

world cup stats;

adidas golden ball (best player): zinedine zidane (france)
adidas golden shoe (top goalscorer): miroslav klose (germany)
gilette best young player: lukas podolski (germany)
lev yashin award (best goalkeeper): gianlugi buffon (itali)

i'm sure gonna miss world cup. well i am rite now. even if it ends up to be very da dissapointing but i cant forget all the good memories esp for my fav teams ;) its great but sad to sae world cup is only once in four years. so i'll just have to wait for euro den. just hope my fav teams make it thru the finals and win the cup ;) 2008, yeap euro 2008.

adiouss...